Monday, March 31, 2008

Life's like this~

Sometimes my dad tells us stories about life and people...
Here is a good one...

After God created lives on earth, He decided to give all living things a role to play in the new world... God then called upon the Bull, the Dog, the Monkey, and Human...

He first talked to the Bull...
God : Bull, you have to work very hard and serve others for your entire life and you are given grass as you food. I shall let you live for 50 years.
Bull : What??! I have to work my ass off and what i get is grass?? 20 years is enough for me to live, You can keep the 30 years, my Lord.

Then he turn to the Dog, and say...
God : Dog, you will sit and guard in front of your house and bark to whoever passing by your house and you have leftovers and bones for food. I shall let you live for 30 years.
Dog : What??! I have to bark like a lunatic and all I get is leftovers and bones?? No thanks, just let me live for 10 years and You can keep the 20 years, my Lord.

Next, he go on to Monkey...
God : Monkey, you shall make funny faces and entertain people for your life and have bananas as food. I shall let you leave for 20 years.
Monkey : Huh??! I gotta make clowns' face and entertain people for my entire life and all I get is bananas?? Nah, I would like to have only 10 years to live and you can keep the remaining 10 years, my Lord.

and lastly, He come to Human, and says...
God : Human, my dearest creation, for you I'll let you play and have fun, eat the tastiest food, drink the finest beverage. You do not need to work but to enjoy and indulge in your wonderful life... I shall let you live for 20 years.
Human : Oh dear God, I have such wonderful life and I only get to live for 20 years?? 20 years are too short for me to enjoy. Don't you have the extra 30 years from the Bull, 20 years from the Dog and 10 years from the Monkey?? Can You All Mighty grant me those extra years to live??
God : Those years from others?? Hmmm... Are you sure you want those extra years???
Human : Certainly!!! my Lord...
God : Alright then, I shall grant you extra 60 years to live...

That's why we humans get to play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives, then have to work like a bull for the next 30 years, and when we reach the age of 50 and we're retired, we'll sit in front our house and loves to bark at people (grumpy old man which has nothing better to do) for 20 years, and around the age of 70, when we have our grandchildren, we will make funny funny faces to entertain them...

-the end-

Hope you enjoy reading this story, cuz I find it rather interesting...

mk.lame storyteller

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Exhausting Day~

Ching Ming prayer day...
Stuck in the car for 6 hours...
Took 5 hours to reach Fairy Park at Meru...
and 1 hour to reach home...
Freaking traffic congestion...
Too many cars in Klang...
Gosh!!! Exhausted.... zzzz

-the end-


Saturday, March 29, 2008


It's been 3 months I live without you, obviously I'm still alive... Which means I can live without you, just a little miserable... Glad to hear that you moved on, living your usual happy-go-lucky way, yet upset to see you being able to forget right after everything... I heard it's a norm for guys... How sarcastically ironic... Such a disgrace to have to live like this, holding on to something that no longer exists, living in dreams of memories, feeding on words that no longer sound...
What goes around comes around, maybe it's the mistakes I've done that makes me deserve this, drowned in my wonders, unaware of the calmness before a catastrophe, until the alarm rang and nothing can be done... There's gain and loss you said, that sacrifices have to be made for some decisions. Then there's more gain than loss you said, but how do you measure which I treasure more??
Silly things I've done in the past 3 months, dramatically portrait lonesome, idiotically numb myself with alcohol, cried in the middle of the night like some weaklings, made vows and promises like a loser, and etc etc etc... Hate being a weakling, hate being a loser, hate myself!! *~cuz I hate how much I love you boy~* oops, crap the Rihanna... Not getting over you in the near future, but don't worry I still love myself more enough to not let you ruin my life... Muaxx

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Science vs God

The other day Sanly sent me this email about an argument and I can't help but to share it here...

Science vs. God

"Let me explain the problem science
has with Jesus Christ." The
atheist professor of philosophy pauses
before his class and then asks one of
his new students to stand.

"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"

"Yes sir," the student says.

"So you believe in God?"


"Is God good?"

"Sure! God's good."

"Is God all-powerful? Can God do


"Are you good or evil?"

"The Bible says I'm evil."

The professor grins knowingly. "Aha!
The Bible!" He considers for a moment.

"Here's one for you. Let's say there's
a sick person over here and you can
cure him. You can do it. Would you
help him. Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good...!"

"I wouldn't say that."

"But why not say that? You'd help a
sick and maimed person if you could.
of us would if we could. But God

The student does not answer, so the
professor continues. "He doesn't,does
My brother was a Christian who died of
cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus
to heal him. How is this Jesus good?
Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"

The student remains silent.

"No, you can't, can you?" the
professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a
glass on his desk to give the student
time to relax.

"Let's start again, young fella Is God

"Er...yes," the student says.

"Is Satan good?"

The student doesn't hesitate on this
one. "No."

"Then where does Satan come from?"

The student : "From...God..."

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't
he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this

"Yes, sir."

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God
did make everything, correct?"


"So who created evil?" The professor
continued, "If God created everything,
then God created evil, since evil
exists, and according to the principle
our works define who we are, then God
is evil."

Without allowing the student to
answer, the professor continues: "Is
sickness, Immorality, Hatred,
Ugliness, All these terrible things,do
exist in this world?"

The student: "Yes."

"So who created them?"

The student does not answer again, so
the professor repeats his question.
"Who created them? There is still no
answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks
away to pace in front of the
classroom. The class is mesmerized.

"Tell me," he continues onto another
student. "Do you believe in Jesus
Christ, son?"

The student's voice is
confident: "Yes, professor, I do."

The old man stops pacing. "Science
says you have five senses you use to
identify and observe the world around

Have you ever seen Jesus?"

"No sir. I've never seen Him"

"Then tell us if you've ever heard
your Jesus?"

"No, sir, I have not."

"Have you ever actually felt your
Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your
Have you ever had any sensory
perception of Jesus Christ, or God for

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"Yet you still believe in him?"


"According to the rules of empirical,
testable, demonstrable
says your God doesn't exist.

What do you say to that, son?"

"Nothing," the student replies. "I
only have my faith."

"Yes, faith," the professor
repeats. "And that is the problem
science has
with God. There is no evidence, only

The student stands quietly for a
moment, before asking a question of his

"Professor, is there such thing as

"Yes," the professor replies. "There's

"And is there such a thing as cold?"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No sir, there isn't."

The professor turns to face the
student, obviously interested. The
suddenly becomes very quiet. The
student begins to explain.

"You can have lots of heat, even more
heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited
heat, white heat, a little heat or no
heat, but we don't have anything
'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees
below zero, which is no heat, but we
can't go any further after that. There
is no such thing as cold; otherwise we
would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees.

Every body or object is susceptible to
study when it has or transmits energy,
and heat is what makes a body or
matter have or transmit energy.
zero (-458 F) is the total absence of
heat. You see, sir, cold is only a
we use to describe the
absence of heat. We cannot measure
cold. Heat we can measure in thermal
because heat is energy. Cold is not
the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it."

Silence across the room. A pen drops
somewhere in the classroom, sounding
like a hammer.

"What about darkness, professor. Is
there such a thing as darkness?"

"Yes," the professor replies without
hesitation. "What is night if it isn't

"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is
not something; it is the absence of
something. You can have low light,
normal light, bright light, flashing
light, but if you have no light
constantly you have nothing and it's
darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning
we use to define the word. In reality,
darkness isn't. If it were, you would
be able to make darkness darker,
wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the
student in front of him. This will be
good semester. "So what point are you
making, young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is, your
philosophical premise is flawed to
with, and so your conclusion must also
be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his
surprise this time. "Flawed? Can
you explain how?"

"You are working on the premise of
duality," the student explains. "You
argue that there is life and then
there's death; a good God and a bad
You are viewing the concept of God as
something finite, something we can

Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and
but has never seen, much less fully
understood either one. To view death
the opposite of life is to be ignorant
of the fact that death cannot exist as
a substantive thing. Death is not the
opposite of life, just the absence of

"Now tell me, professor. Do you teach
your students that they evolved from a
"If you are referring to the natural
evolutionary process, young man, yes,
course I do"
"Have you ever observed evolution with
your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his
head, still smiling, as he realizes
the argument is going. A very good
semester, indeed.

"Since no one has ever observed the
process of evolution at work and cannot
even prove that this process is an on-
going endeavor, are you not teaching
your opinion, sir? Are you now not a
scientist, but a preacher?"

The class is in uproar. The student
remains silent until the commotion has
"To continue the point you were making
earlier to the other student, let me
give you an example of what I mean."

The student looks around the room. "Is
there anyone in the class who has ever
seen the professor's brain?" The class
breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever
heard the professor's brain, felt
the professor's brain, touched or
smelled the professor's brain? No one
appears to have done so. So, according
to the established rules of empirical,
stable, demonstrable protocol, science
says that you have no brain, with all
due respect, sir. So if science says
you have no brain, how can we trust
lectures, sir?"

Now the room is silent. The professor
just stares at the student, his face
unreadable. Finally, after what seems
an eternity, the old man answers. "I
guess?you'll have to take them on

"Now, you accept that there is faith,
and, in fact, faith exists with life,"
the student continues. "Now, sir, is
there such a thing as evil?"

Now uncertain, the professor
responds, "Of course, there is. We see
It is in the daily example of man's
inhumanity to man. It is in the
of crime and violence everywhere in
the world. These manifestations are
nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil
does not exist sir, or at least it does
not exist unto itself. Evil is simply
the absence of God. It is just like
darkness and cold, a word that man has
created to describe the absence of

God did not create evil. Evil is the
result of what happens when man does
have God's love present in his heart.
It's like the cold that comes when
there is no heat or the darkness that
comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

Friday, March 21, 2008

at the edge of giving up...

I see myself turning into a nocturnal animal lately... It seems that not only my life was all wretched, even my biological clock is all messed up! Almost for a week I went to bed as late as 3-4 pm.. And wake up at noon... Lalala, it's actually a very normal thing for a person enjoying her holiday~ No way, I'm not leading such an unhealthy lifestyle yet, every morning I find no purpose for me to wake up.

Have been sticking on my laptop for the passed 10 days doing whatever last_minute research and applications for universities and scholarships. I am now traumatized by looking at so much data that I've found yet I've problems sorting them out. I'm considered done with the local and Singapore universities applications. One thing bothering me now is the applications for aussie... Almost all of the Australian universities that I've checked do not offer Pharmacy for the second semester (July) intake, therefore it's rather pointless to apply for them, aye?

Furthermore, I'll need to sign up for IELTS which will cost me rm800 for the test + workshop, by which it's a lot of money to me. Plus every application to each Australia University will cost me $AUD100. Even though my dad does not mind to spend the amount of money, I still find that's a lot of money to be thrown away... Ugh ugh, so I changed my mind, say slash to aussie!! I'm a piece weak minded crap!

_____~Wish of the day~_____
Happy Birthday To Kar Keat!!!
Although you study at TAR college d and very boh-liong-simly forgotten me, still gotta say ;

_____~MK lights A bulb~_____
Fellow peepow, this is just a new section that I'd like to add to my blog sharing my own
half-made up-half-true philosophies, so listen and learn!! Or maybe just listen...

Bulb #1 *twink* :
Tips to guys in a relationship, remember the DATES!! Valentine's day, her birthday, her father's birthday, her mother's birthday, her ah gong's ah ma's birthday, your first date, your first kiss~ Haha you'll be surprised by how girls remember them and how happy you make her feels if you do too!!

I'm not a love expert; I just share what I feel... Muaxxx ^3^


Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Big Girls Don't Cry~

Just like every other lonely night, it's just me staying awake, facing the laptop, doing ... I did not drink today... It's not healthy, especially for whom, wanna pursue further education in the field of Health Sciences...
This song so happened to flash through my mind...
Yes, I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket, but I've got to get it move on with my life~
It's never time to be a big girl, since I'm "heng kecik"... But "heng kecik" don't cry as well... Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, not even in Mk's Neverland...

So get it over with......

"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay


Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity


La Da Da Da Da Da

Monday, March 17, 2008

ShOw SoMe MerCy! sHoW sOmE mERcY!!

The other day I got this email from Eric with the title: "A must watch!!! This is seriously inhuman!!!" and there is this link to A Shocking Look Inside Chinese Fur Farm, there was description on how helpless animals like foxes, rabbits, raccoon dog and etc are treated in a chinese fur farm and there's a video showing how a raccoon dog was brutally skinned alive... Please do not watch the video with children around, the animals have not been shown a slightest kindness...

It was on survival instinct when our ancestors hunt animals for living... They need meat for food and fur to stay warm... But now that we are able to make clothes from cotton and wool, why do we still need fur goods? Fashion? Some says... Oh please~ What is so nice and fashionable about wearing a thick, fluffy fur garment that makes yourself look like a big, fat bear?? And When the Buying STOPS, the Killing STOPS too!!! So please do not buy fur garments... Also spread the awareness to your family, friends, relatives and colleagues!!

Sorry for the lack of updates, I'm currently unemployed and are super free staying at home doing nothing~ But! Ever since my results are released I have been busy checking out universities and scholarships available for undergraduate studies... Never prepared for it before the release of result as I never thought I will get such results... Now I have to sign up for TOEFL and IELTS in order to get an admission into a university in Australia or New Zealand... It cost me more than RM1000 for both of the tests... Freaky!! Furthermore, I'm in another dilemma whether to study Pharmacy or Nutrition&Dietetics/Food Science... Dad or most adults will want me to take the so-called more prestigious Pharmacy, but I personally prefer food over medicine... What should I do?? Though I'm interested in Pharmacy as well~ zzzz Hate being so indecisive!!!

Alright, gotta get back to my survey for universities~ So sick of that!! *puke in front of my laptop* Uh, gotta clear up some mess now too... So till my next update~ Cheerio!
Adios amigo~~

mk.bloody mary

P/s: keep the video out of sight of children! I can't bare to finish it myself!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008


It all started with a heart full of reluctance...
Despite how the words to come out wanting to challenge it,
the heart simply repels it, just like most of the people...
When some of the friends started college and seems to be having fun,
was wondering, and doubting why am I wearing the uniform...

One day i found that it wasn't that difficult as everyone thought,
at least not for me, I saw hopes and potentials;
that I can make my way out of it...
Then, I started to set goals like everyone else,
goals that somehow believed to be achievable...
As saying goes:
[literary the moon is more superior than the stars]
"Aim for the moon, even if you miss it, you'll land among the stars."

Things wasn't totally smooth and easy for me;
there was time when i struggle in agony,
there was time when i confuse in dilemma,
there was time when i have to sacrifice, things that i want the most,
there was time when i lose my faith, and strength to strive further...
I held on, telling myself it will be over soon...

It all comes to an end in the preparation for the ultimate battle,
As rationality takes control and overrule my mind...
I finally get to focus, for two months, to think of nothing else,
but to get myself ready for the battle...
As usual, is to hold on, just hold on...
even if it's just the slimmest string left to be held on...

Finally, the battle is over, and the day has come,
to reveal the outcome of my hard work...
I walked alone, along the corridor,
towards the foyer where everyone is heading...

Anxiety surrounds me while adrenaline's kicking me,
still i walk and i walk...
along the corridor that seems to be longer than it used to...
till i reach the booth, that possesses the piece of paper of mine,
that's going to change my life... forever... [wtf, just exaggerating]

With my shaky hands, I removed the seal...
As i unfold the paper and claims my results,
i lost my breath, my heart beat stops,
everything around me just paused and disappeared!!!

I run through the alphabets on the paper,
trying to get them through my mind and interpret them...

For a second, i lost my mind...
The moment i regain myself, and return to reality,
I was overwhelmed, overjoyed, and bounced to Cloud 9!!!
My hands are still shaking while i press the buttons of my mobile phone...
Tears of joy i shed while passing the news to my loved ones..
I did it, far beyond my expectations but i did it!!!
CGPA 4.0!!! It used to appear only in my dreams...
Although I often said that I aim to get 4.0 flat...
But I never thought that it will become a reality one day... This day!!!

All my hard work, my effort, my brain juice, my sacrifices...
They are rewarded... With this piece of paper...
But let's not get too carried away with it...
I got so many things to do now...
It will be a new day and a new chapter of my life tomorrow...
Let me leave my sorrows and regrets behind...
And march to a better life tomorrow!!!


Saturday, March 8, 2008

***8th March 2008***

Woots!! It's the 12th Malaysian Election Day today... It's also my parents 20th Wedding Anniversary!!! And, and, and... It's my oh-so-not-active-nowadays Siao Pian Association anniversary as well... Oh~Celebrations~~
But then I'm not feeling so well today... and parents are those down to earth people that they don't celebrate their anniversaries... So today is like every other ordinary boring Saturday...
People... Please be careful and try not to go out in these few days after the elections, because we don't know how the fanatics from any side of the parties might react after the announcement of results tonight... Since the opposition are so aggressive this time, and i heard so many complains towards the existing government... This election is said to be rather interesting...
Yesterday brought Susan to Dynasty condo for swimming and was rather annoyed by the guards... At first doesn't really care since they're just doing their job... But then that stupid fella starts to irritates me when he accused me as a liar!!! Jeez my family do own a freaking lot in that freaking condo so what's wrong with me visiting the place?? Mind his own business okay!! I don't freaking care if he's new and he so idiotically don't know that I've been swimming there for years!!! I swear if he disturbs me the next time I show up there, I'm sure to report a complain to his boss/whatever company he belongs... Freaking retards!!! omg, I'm so not blogging this way... Sorry, but it makes me feel so much better... I'll try not to next time, so just bare with me for the moment...
gahaha still.. Susan knows how to swim now!!! I'm a good teacher gwahaha.. So celebrations~~ though she still needs plenty of trainings... As she have the pose but still find it very hard to swim forward... haha.. Then we went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi to have lunch with Ivan.. Pizza thanks to Ivan's treat!! Silly Susan was starving and she greedily ordered a 4pax set plus a spaghetti when there are only 3 of us eating... She thought we are dinosaurs or what?? Stuffing 4slices of pizza into my already-big tummy makes me wanna puke! Lol till the end when Ivan geli-ly try to drink the remaining mushroom soup using the straw i nearly vomit my lunch onto the plates...
Then went shopping with susan for a while and bought a pair of heels while ss got herself a pair of boots that she long for... Guilt strikes me for spending unwisely~~ T,T but then it's the money i earned... SO don't care~
Then off to Sookee to check out some diamonds... Ivan keeps explaining on the Brilliant Rose which have 66 cuts (33 at the pavilion, and 33 on the girlie or something) that makes it shines more than any other diamonds... [it's said to be the highest technology to date] Haha since my fingers are considered "small" he insist that o.31 karat diamonds suits me better... Aiks, people wished to be proposed with a diamond ring that weigh at least a karat ma... But seriously that ring with a karat of diamond was kinda too big for my hand to carry... T.T no fate to wear 1 karat diamond ring... Had fun at Sookee and the supervisor there, Nicole was nice and pretty~ So much for yesterday outings^^


Thursday, March 6, 2008


Yoyoyoyo... Yesterday right from morning(ehem, noon) when i wake up, my house got no water supply!!! So in the evening i went for swimming at condo... Actually it's because of i wanna bath so much but my house got no water... so go bath at condo's washroom... My kaki(s) all tak layan me so i went alone... I have the whole swimming pool for myself so it's kinda enjoyment yet mixing lonesome... Hehe, after all I'm training myself to be less dependent on companions... Who knows someday I'll go study/work at a foreign place all by myself and I have difficulties meeting new people?? This may be the life I'm going to live!*Calculating Probabilities* (Woops! My probabilities are so weak!!) Wont for long period though... Nyek nyek nyek... bLah! Everytime after i swim i will feel very much like to eat junk food and so i stop by 99speedmart after the swim.. I just took bath and i forgot my comb thus, my hair was like so messy!!! and i was wearing those cincai clothes that i wear at home... So imagine how aunty i look by then??? Omg... I was definitely crazed by snacks..

Went for ice-skating at pyramid today with Ivan and ShirHong, Ben and BK join us last minute in the morning... Fall for 3 times, not pain but super wet and cold... Yet falling is a good way for me to learn.. once i fall i dun freaking care and scare of the next fall d.. haha.. I see improvement in my skating skill *GooD!!* but we stop just when i started to skate a little faster... LOL... Keke, everyone falls today, Ivan injured himself the most trying to learn those "yao yeng" moves to stop/brake... woots~ and some guy named Willy taught me how to skate... Haha, thanks to him I kinda improve more... but I also start falling when i try to listen to him... zzzz so it was actually his fault that i fell!! Wahaha I'm a.k.a "Boh Liong Sim" don't you know? keke In short: I have FUN today!!! GooD!!

OMGOOOOOOOOOD!!!! When i was blogging halfway, my cousin suddenly nudged me on MSN and tell me the biggest news in the universe!!! STPM results are coming out on next TUESDAY!!!
*****11th MARCH 2008*****
Haha, all of the sudden, adrenaline and thyroxine rushed through my veins, my heart rate increase until 180 beats/minit... Haha, i could have die off heart attack... And my stomach instantly filled with butterflies and i feel like passing motion! (Hehe, most ppl got the feel of pang sai when they are nervous, so i'm not a freak okay???) Yor!!! Haha Cool Calm Down~~ **Fingers crossed** So hard till i heard a crack! Oops! Did i just broke my fingers??
(I make the fonts italic to show that I'm shivering due to over-panic, and GREEN to show my face colour~)

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

wooo this is mk blogging early in the morning... Oops or should i say early in the afternoon?? I just woke up from bed like every other oh-so-free day,i slept half my day away...
woots! my house has no water supply this morning, still out of water now i had to use drinking water to brush my teeth... so weird because i feel like drinking that water but it's with tooth paste... I still end up drinking a couple of gulp though [without tooth paste of course!!!]... hey I'm no freaks, no! it's a waste to use up all the drinking water just on brushing okay??? especially during water shortage day... plus, i only drink boiled water at home, not those "safe-for-drinking" filtered water from the the pipes... exceptions for Diamond water that my friends served me at their house though...
Some of my finger tips are soring.. due to the alcohol i took last night... not much okay, beer only... told you i'm a mild drinker... it feel very much like inflammation.. Alcohol affects your health people... not talking about "DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!" that's like a slogan since forever... Drinking alcohol causes diuresis- production of large amount of urine as it inhibits the release of anti-diuretic hormone(ADH)... So my theory is we will have mild dehydration after consuming alcohol, as we have many water loss from the urine... but what does it has to do with the sharp pain i felt on my finger tips?? Explain, anyone? Darren, the doctor-to-be??
SPM results are coming out in a week time, i suppose STPM results won't be much further away, looking forward to it... If it's good i'll be busy applying for many other universities else than the locals, and if it's not good then i'll save my time and see what i can get in the locals.. sigh... So much to worry about, so little care about it...
Really!! after the battle during STPM preparation I'm kinda traumatized to study anymore... to think of everything i read in the books over and over again when i'm doing my daily routine it's like i'm haunted by the books!!! Lol, I was imagining my sphincter muscles relaxing when I was in the toilet doing my business... (small one) and to think that my gastric juice are going to pierce through my wall of mucus in my stomach lining and caused me gastric everytime i heard my stomach groaning I'll go and eat which means people like me wont get to diet and kiam pui through the most popular way of skipping meals... Gosh, I wanna cut my tummy off!!! Please tell me that swimming works! Because I'm currently into swimming... ghahaha
vokay, enough craps for today... mmmmuaxxxx


Monday, March 3, 2008

Freedom? Boredom?

Finished korean drama <>... As usual, cried a river while watching the DVD... Yup, very free now as I'm currently unemployed... Yea yea wasting my time at home and do nothing good... And also because of all the free time i have in a life without purpose, my life got all wretched... Heck, super in the mood of blogging, but facing the laptop my mind goes blank...


emo again~ zzzz