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Eric bro just complained that my blog berkulat d... Come on la it's only two days ago since I last updated my blog... If that long my blog can berkulat, S 0-0 n's blog I guess become fossil d lo...
Not only that, but he also said my blog has no content... Not to say sad to hear that, but gotta admit that I'm not a good blogger...
Well just to let you know, Narnia - Prince Caspian is pretty satisfying... Nice to see King Peter and King Edmund the handsome... Prince Caspian Tak Boleh la... Kakaka... I've just done my NUS hostel application... I pretty much don't know what I am doing with my life lately... Hahaha and the fact is---> I AM NOT IN THE MOOD OF BLOGGING AT ALLLLLLLLL...
Lastly, my life and soul are SO empty that words from me are empty as well...

Chao~


mk.emptiness

Don't Stay

I am giving tuition to my little brother and we found a little emo-piece of poem... It looks like my brother's handwriting but he was swearing that it was't his product... Anyway, it was in a small piece of note and I think it's cute!! This is how the "poem" sound...

Don't Stay
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me!!!
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Sometimes I need you to go!!!

I can't help to blog about it as it's so cute and to avoid embarassments, I did some investigations on it... And guess what I found??? Lol it's Don't Stay from Linkin Park.. Again I'm impress with my stupidity... Lalala~~ The lyrics just best describe me.. Let's share it here...


Linkin Park - Don't Stay lyrics

Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm
In disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I Need you to go
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'mIn disbelief
I didn't know
Somehow I Need to be alone
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away (2x)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay (3x)


mk.not so emo

Happy Birthday...

Happy 20th Birthday

To

Cheng_Uncivilized

Bad Day

I started off my day with the worst morning ever!!! I'm clueless of what's going on with my life... I am always able to set my priorities right but not now... Frustrated... Could it be for I have not been able to focus on abstract future?? Or merely because I have just other shit in my mind... Eventually it's a bit of both... And two wrongs definitely WON'T make a right...
Right, I AM emo-ing at this moment... Which is the biggest reason why I'm blogging at this early hour... Yes, 9am is EARLY for I usually sleep my morning away and awake at noon... I'm still exhausted over the 3 days of outings... Saturday to KL then Pyramid; Sunday went for Japanese Buffet at Jogoya, JW Meriot Hotel, KL; Yesterday whole day at Starhill then night at Setapak... Want me to elaborate more?? Maybe next time...
I'm feeling a little dizzy, and mild headache... It feels like hung over, but I have not taken a single drop of alcohol yesterday... When more things don't turn out the way I want them to be, my life goes from bad to worse... Why can't local university be more efficient with the intake... I'm sick of waiting for one after another outcome of applications... CCM scholarship still no sound no picture, have obviously failed in YKhazanah and Shell... and no idea how's Y.Pahang... FED UP!!!
Yesterday went to PV6, Melati Utama, Setapak to celebrate Cheng's birthday and visited TARians condominium... A very basic space of living with basic needs of living... All I remember are matresses in the rooms, messy and unmade 'beds', cupboard for clothes, washed towels and clothes hanging in the living room and balcony, many study tables each with a pc/laptop on it... Waaaa, I sort of foresee my university life staying away from home...
Blogging is a good way to release the imbalanced.negative energy in me as I was so emo and moody just now that I feel like if I could just die!!! [no la, committing suicide is the last thing that will come across my mind, homocide will comes first] But now, after some typing and crapping, I sort of forgot what I'm emo-ing on... Well not exactly forget but the unpleasant feeling don't get on me that much now...
The biggest problem with me now is that I can't accept changes in things, life and people around me... This is just another period of transition in my life, when I'm changing from a high school student to an university student; when reaching a step closer or further to my dream; when I'm recovering from a relationship; but everything is so unstable that anything can change drastically in a blink of an eye...
Tomorrow if my appeal success, I'll be leaving to Singapore; if my appeal failed I'll stay local; local if I get USM, I'll be leaving ALOT of my friends and head to Penang; If I cant's get pharmacy in local, I'm going to SG and gamble my future; there're so many IF and I have to be physically and mentally prepared for each and every possible outcome which indirectly exerted a form of stress and pressure which are causing my depression...
Love wise, there's nothing much I can do for the time being... Facing seems to be the hardest way... Therefore I'm doing what I do best; escapism and ignorance... Time please fly faster, just let me have something to do and keep me busy away from thinking of you... Endurance and pride both has a limit, I have exceeded mine and I'm aware that more effort will bare no fruits, therefore I surrender... I hope I can stick to my vow for this time... Just this once...


mk.fallen

I had a dream about you...

Last night I went to bed extremely early, merely because I'm exhausted for the day... Woke up as early as 7am to attend the NUS Welcome Tea... Manage to get Eric to accompany me there and listen to some briefing, approached seniors for some questions, have some refreshments and headed back to Klang to get to Redbox, Pyramid... This trip is the most expensive trip I have ever been to karaeoke.. THANKS to SuLing, who suggested us to go all the way there with a most unexceptable excuse of that she's afraid of Greenbox Bukit Tinggi being HAUNTED... Well I definitely don't buy that, still for BFF calling so I went Redbox lu... Asked Eric along as well.. SuLing, just to say, NO NEXT TIME PLEASE.. I'm not that rich wei.. Tak Boleh Tahan outings like these... :P Still, I am VERY HAPPY as I get to SING~~ SINGER DIVA wanna-be me...

So pat toh with Eric whole day at night also dreamt of him... KAU LAT!! So at night since I have nothing better to do I went to bed early, 10pm you say early not?? Had a mild nightmare of arguing over small matter with Eric and woke up at 1.30am... Then continue to sleep back kakaka... Speaking of arguing with Eric, we never quarrel with each other ever since we become good friends... LOL Somemore till now still we have many things to talk about.. I wonder when will I get sick and bored with him??? Wahaha, just kidding... Oh I know you are reading, Eric, I very much treasure and appreciate your friendship and brotherhood... So Best Friend Forever Ya!!!
p/s: when want go swimming??

Going out for lunch, so till my next update... Bon Voyage~

mk