Big Girls Don't Cry~

Just like every other lonely night, it's just me staying awake, facing the laptop, doing ... I did not drink today... It's not healthy, especially for whom, wanna pursue further education in the field of Health Sciences...
This song so happened to flash through my mind...
Yes, I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket, but I've got to get it move on with my life~
It's never time to be a big girl, since I'm "heng kecik"... But "heng kecik" don't cry as well... Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, not even in Mk's Neverland...
So get it over with......

"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

Music Video:
Big Girls Dont Cry by (Fergie)

Music Video Code by Video Code Zone

mk.heng kecik

ShOw SoMe MerCy! sHoW sOmE mERcY!!

The other day I got this email from Eric with the title: "A must watch!!! This is seriously inhuman!!!" and there is this link to A Shocking Look Inside Chinese Fur Farm, there was description on how helpless animals like foxes, rabbits, raccoon dog and etc are treated in a chinese fur farm and there's a video showing how a raccoon dog was brutally skinned alive... Please do not watch the video with children around, the animals have not been shown a slightest kindness...

It was on survival instinct when our ancestors hunt animals for living... They need meat for food and fur to stay warm... But now that we are able to make clothes from cotton and wool, why do we still need fur goods? Fashion? Some says... Oh please~ What is so nice and fashionable about wearing a thick, fluffy fur garment that makes yourself look like a big, fat bear?? And When the Buying STOPS, the Killing STOPS too!!! So please do not buy fur garments... Also spread the awareness to your family, friends, relatives and colleagues!!

Sorry for the lack of updates, I'm currently unemployed and are super free staying at home doing nothing~ But! Ever since my results are released I have been busy checking out universities and scholarships available for undergraduate studies... Never prepared for it before the release of result as I never thought I will get such results... Now I have to sign up for TOEFL and IELTS in order to get an admission into a university in Australia or New Zealand... It cost me more than RM1000 for both of the tests... Freaky!! Furthermore, I'm in another dilemma whether to study Pharmacy or Nutrition&Dietetics/Food Science... Dad or most adults will want me to take the so-called more prestigious Pharmacy, but I personally prefer food over medicine... What should I do?? Though I'm interested in Pharmacy as well~ zzzz Hate being so indecisive!!!

Alright, gotta get back to my survey for universities~ So sick of that!! *puke in front of my laptop* Uh, gotta clear up some mess now too... So till my next update~ Cheerio!
Adios amigo~~


mk.bloody mary

P/s: keep the video out of sight of children! I can't bare to finish it myself!

HARD WORK DOES PAY!!!

It all started with a heart full of reluctance...
Despite how the words to come out wanting to challenge it,
the heart simply repels it, just like most of the people...
When some of the friends started college and seems to be having fun,
was wondering, and doubting why am I wearing the uniform...

One day i found that it wasn't that difficult as everyone thought,
at least not for me, I saw hopes and potentials;
that I can make my way out of it...
Then, I started to set goals like everyone else,
goals that somehow believed to be achievable...
As saying goes: [literary the moon is more superior than the stars]
"Aim for the moon, even if you miss it, you'll land among the stars."

Things wasn't totally smooth and easy for me;
there was time when i struggle in agony,
there was time when i confuse in dilemma,
there was time when i have to sacrifice, things that i want the most,
there was time when i lose my faith, and strength to strive further...
I held on, telling myself it will be over soon...

It all comes to an end in the preparation for the ultimate battle,
As rationality takes control and overrule my mind...
I finally get to focus, for two months, to think of nothing else,
but to get myself ready for the battle...
As usual, is to hold on, just hold on...
even if it's just the slimmest string left to be held on...

Finally, the battle is over, and the day has come,
to reveal the outcome of my hard work...
I walked alone, along the corridor,
towards the foyer where everyone is heading...
Anxiety surrounds me while adrenaline's kicking me,
still i walk and i walk...
along the corridor that seems to be longer than it used to...
till i reach the booth, that possesses the piece of paper of mine,
that's going to change my life... forever... [wtf, just exaggerating]

With my shaky hands, I removed the seal...
As i unfold the paper and claims my results,
i lost my breath, my heart beat stops,
everything around me just paused and disappeared!!!
I run through the alphabets on the paper,
trying to get them through my mind and interpret them...

For a second, i lost my mind...
The moment i regain myself, and return to reality,
I was overwhelmed, overjoyed, and bounced to Cloud 9!!!
My hands are still shaking while i press the buttons of my mobile phone...
Tears of joy i shed while passing the news to my loved ones..
I did it, far beyond my expectations but i did it!!!
CGPA 4.0!!! It used to appear only in my dreams...
Although I often said that I aim to get 4.0 flat...
But I never thought that it will become a reality one day... This day!!!


All my hard work, my effort, my brain juice, my sacrifices...
They are rewarded... With this piece of paper...
But let's not get too carried away with it...
I got so many things to do now...
It will be a new day and a new chapter of my life tomorrow...
Let me leave my sorrows and regrets behind...
And march to a better life tomorrow!!!


mk.delighted!

***8th March 2008***

Woots!! It's the 12th Malaysian Election Day today... It's also my parents 20th Wedding Anniversary!!! And, and, and... It's my oh-so-not-active-nowadays Siao Pian Association anniversary as well... Oh~Celebrations~~
But then I'm not feeling so well today... and parents are those down to earth people that they don't celebrate their anniversaries... So today is like every other ordinary boring Saturday...
People... Please be careful and try not to go out in these few days after the elections, because we don't know how the fanatics from any side of the parties might react after the announcement of results tonight... Since the opposition are so aggressive this time, and i heard so many complains towards the existing government... This election is said to be rather interesting...
Yesterday brought Susan to Dynasty condo for swimming and was rather annoyed by the guards... At first doesn't really care since they're just doing their job... But then that stupid fella starts to irritates me when he accused me as a liar!!! Jeez my family do own a freaking lot in that freaking condo so what's wrong with me visiting the place?? Mind his own business okay!! I don't freaking care if he's new and he so idiotically don't know that I've been swimming there for years!!! I swear if he disturbs me the next time I show up there, I'm sure to report a complain to his boss/whatever company he belongs... Freaking retards!!! omg, I'm so not blogging this way... Sorry, but it makes me feel so much better... I'll try not to next time, so just bare with me for the moment...
gahaha still.. Susan knows how to swim now!!! I'm a good teacher gwahaha.. So celebrations~~ though she still needs plenty of trainings... As she have the pose but still find it very hard to swim forward... haha.. Then we went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi to have lunch with Ivan.. Pizza thanks to Ivan's treat!! Silly Susan was starving and she greedily ordered a 4pax set plus a spaghetti when there are only 3 of us eating... She thought we are dinosaurs or what?? Stuffing 4slices of pizza into my already-big tummy makes me wanna puke! Lol till the end when Ivan geli-ly try to drink the remaining mushroom soup using the straw i nearly vomit my lunch onto the plates...
Then went shopping with susan for a while and bought a pair of heels while ss got herself a pair of boots that she long for... Guilt strikes me for spending unwisely~~ T,T but then it's the money i earned... SO don't care~
Then off to Sookee to check out some diamonds... Ivan keeps explaining on the Brilliant Rose which have 66 cuts (33 at the pavilion, and 33 on the girlie or something) that makes it shines more than any other diamonds... [it's said to be the highest technology to date] Haha since my fingers are considered "small" he insist that o.31 karat diamonds suits me better... Aiks, people wished to be proposed with a diamond ring that weigh at least a karat ma... But seriously that ring with a karat of diamond was kinda too big for my hand to carry... T.T no fate to wear 1 karat diamond ring... Had fun at Sookee and the supervisor there, Nicole was nice and pretty~ So much for yesterday outings^^

mk

Tired~~~ZzZzZz

Yoyoyoyo... Yesterday right from morning(ehem, noon) when i wake up, my house got no water supply!!! So in the evening i went for swimming at condo... Actually it's because of i wanna bath so much but my house got no water... so go bath at condo's washroom... My kaki(s) all tak layan me so i went alone... I have the whole swimming pool for myself so it's kinda enjoyment yet mixing lonesome... Hehe, after all I'm training myself to be less dependent on companions... Who knows someday I'll go study/work at a foreign place all by myself and I have difficulties meeting new people?? This may be the life I'm going to live!*Calculating Probabilities* (Woops! My probabilities are so weak!!) Wont for long period though... Nyek nyek nyek... bLah! Everytime after i swim i will feel very much like to eat junk food and so i stop by 99speedmart after the swim.. I just took bath and i forgot my comb thus, my hair was like so messy!!! and i was wearing those cincai clothes that i wear at home... So imagine how aunty i look by then??? Omg... I was definitely crazed by snacks..

Went for ice-skating at pyramid today with Ivan and ShirHong, Ben and BK join us last minute in the morning... Fall for 3 times, not pain but super wet and cold... Yet falling is a good way for me to learn.. once i fall i dun freaking care and scare of the next fall d.. haha.. I see improvement in my skating skill *GooD!!* but we stop just when i started to skate a little faster... LOL... Keke, everyone falls today, Ivan injured himself the most trying to learn those "yao yeng" moves to stop/brake... woots~ and some guy named Willy taught me how to skate... Haha, thanks to him I kinda improve more... but I also start falling when i try to listen to him... zzzz so it was actually his fault that i fell!! Wahaha I'm a.k.a "Boh Liong Sim" don't you know? keke In short: I have FUN today!!! GooD!!

OMGOOOOOOOOOD!!!! When i was blogging halfway, my cousin suddenly nudged me on MSN and tell me the biggest news in the universe!!! STPM results are coming out on next TUESDAY!!!

*****11th MARCH 2008*****

Haha, all of the sudden, adrenaline and thyroxine rushed through my veins, my heart rate increase until 180 beats/minit... Haha, i could have die off heart attack... And my stomach instantly filled with butterflies and i feel like passing motion! (Hehe, most ppl got the feel of pang sai when they are nervous, so i'm not a freak okay???) Yor!!! Haha Cool Calm Down~~ **Fingers crossed** So hard till i heard a crack! Oops! Did i just broke my fingers??
(I make the fonts italic to show that I'm shivering due to over-panic, and GREEN to show my face colour~)



mk.happy.today~