Route To MK's Neverland

Revive! (In the process)

2011-12-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

Being Single gives me the time in the world to do whatever I wish to do... I still remember him being one of the reason of me neglecting my Neverland here.. Another bigger reason being i was lazy or too boring to blog.

But anyway, am trying to start living a new life here, so since that I'm sure a person full of thoughts and opinions i guess my Neverland here serves as the best platform for me to burp whatever craps i have in me.. I wont wanna force craps into my friends though...

And speaking of which, I have developed Kelantan Induced Depression and Earphone induced Autism, hope my depression will resolve soon enough.. Pretty sure it will...

Now.
The big question is: Should I Carry On with this blog, or to Create a New one??
I hope I can come up with a new template/layout for my newly revived blog after my final exam..
If any of you out there so happen to drop by my blog and saw this, do leave a comment.
Just wanna see if my neverland here still have any visitors left huhu ^3^

Else than that will have to wait till after 15 Jan 2012. I guess... Too bad I cant do a New Year Resolution by 1 Jan. Probably will opt for the CNY Resolution then...

Blogging like this gives me a feeling of nostalgia...
and i hereby announce:

Blogger Kecik is back!

Nobody by Wonder Girls...

2009-12-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

I know it's kinda late.. But still... Love this song~~

[Lyrics]

You Know I still Love You Baby. And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

nan shirheunde wae nal mireonaeryeogo hani jaggu naemareul deutji anhgo
wae ireohke dareun namja-ege nal bonaeryeo hani eoddeohke ireoni

nal wihae geureohdan geu mal neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
ijen geumanhae neon nareul aljanha wae weonhajido anhneungeol gangyohae

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

nan joheunde nan haengbokhande neoman isseumyeon dwae deo baralge eobtneunde
nugul mannaseo haengbokharan geoya nan neol ddeonaseo haengbokhal su eobseo

nal wihae geureohdan geu mal neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
mari an dwoeneun marigan geol wae molla niga eobshi eoddeohge haengbokhae

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don’t want nobody body. I don’t want nobody body.
naneun jeongmal niga animyeon niga animyeon shilhdan maryeo-ahhh

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

(rap)
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
modeunge neomuna ggumman gateodeon geuddaero doragago shipeunde
wae jaggu nareul mireo naeryeohae
Why do you push me away. I don’t want nobody nobody
Nobody nobody but you.

刺猬的爱情

2009-10-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

偶尔觉得自己像刺猬，
爱用身上的尖刺武装自己，
为的只是不让自己受伤害，
但却无意的刺痛了周遭的人，
越是亲近的人，越容易被伤害。
某天遇见了一头猪，被它特别的气质吸引了。
与猪相处后，发现原来不同品种真的很难相处，
尽管处处小心，但还是会不小心地刺伤对方。。。
渐渐地，想慢慢地把身上的刺一根根地拔掉，
拔光了以后，自己也变成了只猪。
没有了刺的刺猬，要如何再保护自己呢？
还是要乖乖地接受猪的命运？？

Tuberculosis!!!

2009-10-10T16:47:00.005+08:00

Shmily uploaded her Denggi poster... I can't help but to upload mine TB too...
Susah susah do d sure must present abit la...

Lunch

2009-09-25T23:53:00.003+08:00

Disclaimer:
For those who have actually thought my previous post was a real condom, it's a chocolate...

Went for lunch at BBQ Plaza..

I wouldn't say that the food is good... just edible...

Eric and I were such a 'sua ku' cuz we dunno that we should put the pork fat on the hot plate to get some oil..

hehe.. So we ended up pretty messy...

Just from me...

Choco is better than sex!!

2009-09-18T20:59:00.004+08:00

I've come across this very cute product...
Yes I was deceived at first sight...
Strawberry flavor taste Mmmmm...

Too bad can't get it in Malaysia...
Suling got it from a friend...
From Taiwan I heard...

mk

H1N1 Freak Out!!!

2009-07-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hey people, you are reading my blog now, post of the century~ as I have not appeared on the cyber world for no idea how long. Since you can read this, then I guess I’m still alive. Being a H1N1 positive is the biggest nightmare of my life!! Let alone all the stuff that I have gone through during my suspected period, I had been informed the wrong information twice!! It’s too frustrating for me to spill it out here… The GH Penang shows no consistency in their data provision. Do bare with my whinny complaints as I’m a sick patient quarantined somewhere inside GH Penang. Luckily I brought my laptop and thus, I was typing my post in the GH…

Alright, let me start from my onset…

2 July 2009
Started to feel unwell, had mild cough… Still practicing at the Wanderers… Unhappy L

3 July 2009
Wake up in the morning, bad sore throat and cough, dizziness, fever and decided to take a day off from Wanderers. Was asked to quarantine at Bakti Permai, one of the USM hostel and asked a friend to fetch me there, by then >> ill till half dead… Was taken to the Wellness centre of USM for screening and wow 39 degree Celsius!! Win already lo… The best thing is, I was wearing mask then, they were not aware that I was one of the committee of APPS, thus, no caution. I was confused and surprised that they let my bf to talk to me without mask!! Ish ish then suddenly!!! Someone found out I was in the APPS then everyone start wearing mask and gloves, immediately I was transfer to an isolation room and then send to the general hospital for H1N1 screening. Personals at GH are so geared up to protect against the infectious disease, I practically can’t see any part of their body exposed in air, and their whole body were wrapped up in plastic!! I was treated like some kind of freaky virus spreading maniac!! After the throat swab they immediately asked the ambulance to send me back to USM. Zzz I ended up spending a night at Wellness Centre Quarantine room, and my poor bf got quarantine as well at the isolation block.

*p/s: vomited 3 times today, didn’t really eat anything, was vomiting water and gastric juice. Ewwww!!!

4 July 2009
Moved to Bakti, everyone called that block “Hilton”, and was given single room on a different floor from the rest. Meal and water was provided and was not allowed out of the room, movements only restricted to the washroom. In the afternoon, someone from the pej*bat kesih*tan come to my quarantine room and get all my contacts during the period of APPS till my onset, then he tells me that I’m a positive and wanted to send me to the GH, after I have informed my mom and few of my close mates, he then tells me it’s pending. Zzzz he then apologize and left, leaving me depressed over my status!! Later around 10 at night, someone from the GH called and informed me that I was negative in the throat swab test. I was instantly delighted and called my doctor to share the good news, and I particularly make her to confirm with the hospital before letting out of quarantine. Of course I didn’t wait any longer to share the good news with mom.

5 July 2009
I waited for the doctor to confirm my test result, and she came back with the good news, so not for long I was released from the quarantine block. I then went back to Tekun – my hostel to check into my room. Not to forget to inform those who were concern that I was negative and kinda celebrated with bf and friends then night slept at Wern Ting’s room.

6 July 2009
A call from GH wake me from my “Date with Mr. Zhou” aka sleep~ The officer now tells me that I was tested positive and they are sending an ambulance over to transport me to the Penang GH. I was shocked and furious and clarified with them that I was told negative. But they insisted that it was the formal printout that indicates that I’m a positive so reluctantly I start packing my bag for a 2 days isolation. I suspected that things may drag longer than it supposed so I prepared for 1 day extra. This time I’m smart enough to bring along my laptop which is why I get to blog at GH, but I was too nauseous to complete it by then so most of this post I type it later, which is now… The ambulance came and again I saw this plastic covered man and he escorted me to the ambulance. Upon reaching the GH, they only allow me to proceed after they have cleared the entire path that I’m going to pass by to get to the isolation room… I’ve got a security guard and a medical officer escorting me and clearing a path of 2 meters radius from me. Civilians in the GH were asked to move aside for me to pass… See la, so “big card”!! Translate that into mandarin and get what I mean. I got a single room with tv, bathroom and air-conditioned… 4 of my other friends were admitted to the same place and they came into my room for a little chitty chat that slightly cheered me up a little. Recalling I was crying all the way from the ambulance to my room. Not because of H1N1 positive, but I was super upset and angry on the wrong information given earlier!!! I was released to the public and might have spread the virus to others!!! And on top of that, I have caused my roommate and friend to be quarantined in “Hilton”!!! Which!! Is a lot of inconvenience!!! It’s not that we are free people with nothing else better to do!! Yup, very emotionally unstable today…

7 July 2009 ~ and 8 July 2009
Today is supposed to be the first day of Year 2 Sem 1, but the School of Pharmacy of USM has canceled all the classes of Year 2, 3 and 4 for a week and was planning to replace it during the mid sem break, oh this is sad… Spent a night in GH and I was supposed to be discharged after the 6th dose of Tamiflu – the antiviral drug for H1N1, which is today… With no place to go for “Home Quarantine”, I together with Wong my final year senior was sent to Hospital Kepala Batas for quarantine until we finished the 10th dose. The ambulance driver (again wrapped in layers of plastic) was sooooooooooo reckless that I’m more worried that I might die of accident instead of swine flu… Geez!! We were allocated in the nurse hostel for 2 nights and here it’s less comfortable and creepier~~ Only 2 of us in the entire hostel… Spooky!! Anyhow, my time was killed more easily with the science fiction my senior once sent me… The novel again is about contagion, narrating few freaking scary infectious diseases like plague, tularemia, and Rocky Mountain spotted fever being spread in a general hospital. The scary nosocomial infection kinda gave me goosebumps given I was admitted to the hospital at the moment… Sigh… and the food sucks!! I wonder if they have dietitians in hospitals to take care of patients’ diet… I was given oily, spicy food for meals and even fried chicken and French fries… So much for healthy diet~

9 July 2009
I finished my 10th Tamiflu this morning and this means that I’m FREEEE!!!!!

It never ever came across me that I’ll be infected by any pandemic disease. Well, perhaps I’m not much of a fortune teller; God knows what’s waiting ahead of me… June 2009 had been the worst month of my life… I have way too many frustrations happen due to some of the decisions I have made. Now that my life is slowly crawling back to normal, I have started to accelerate my pace to keep up with my hectic life as a 2nd year Pharmacy student, projects awaiting:

1) Pharmacy School Orientation Week – delayed for 1week thanks to H1N1
2) The Wanderers Concert – 31 July 2009
3) Bungalow Stay – 1st & 2nd August 2009

Let me get all those done while busy with my already scary 2nd Year Sem 1 studies and I will come back to my blog again… till then muaxx~~

共鸣？

2009-05-29T00:32:00.004+08:00

最近心情有点起伏，

尤其这两天，
大概因为又在看韩剧，
“花样男孩”-- 韩版流星花园，

总是这样，看着曲折离奇的剧情，
心里总有不少共鸣，也有很多感慨。。。
连续看了两天，哭得眼睛都肿起来了！！
像酱 (@_@)
刚刚看了一幕：
夏在景问具俊表，友情与爱情二选一，会选哪样？
不禁让我想起某人问过我的同一翻话。。。
但男主角的回答比我酷百倍！！
他说两者都要。在他的字典里没有抛弃这两个字。。。
果然很帅！
比起台湾的道明寺，他强太多了！！！
总之近日老是感到不安，也说不上为什么。。。
就酱。。。

Ja ne~

mk

Love Story - Taylor Swift

2009-05-19T19:01:00.001+08:00

We were both young, when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I’m standing there, on a balcony of summer air

I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello, little did I know…

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go…
And I said…

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess,
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet, because we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Oh, Ohhh

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
But you were everything to me
I was begging you, please don’t go…
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, Ohhh…

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting, for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress
It’s a love story, baby just say…yes…
Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…
We were both young when I first saw you.

I Love You...

2009-05-11T12:21:00.004+08:00

You brought me to this wonderful world,
You gave me this beautiful life,
You raised me up, till i can stand on my own,
You read me bedtime stories to make me sleep,
You taught me values of life, humanity, and truth,
You guided me to differentiate right from wrong,
You supported me when I was weak and down,
You pulled me through when I am doubtful and confused.

You...
You are my light,
my strength,
my inspiration...
Without you, I'm nothing...

In this meaningful season, I wanna take this opportunity to tell you that
Mommy, I Love You...
MUAXXX

To all mothers in the world...
Happy Mother's Day!!!

Well I doubt any mom gonna read my blog...

mk

Tobacco Control Traning

2009-05-07T00:53:00.006+08:00

Have I ever mentioned to you that I am part of the Pharmacist & Tobacco Control (P&TC) Board??
Yes we are the pioneer batch that are going to initiate a TC project in USM. So the National Poison Centre organized a training programme for us the selected committee.

Date: 1 - 4 May 2009
Venue: Camp Nur Lembah Lenggong, Perak.

All in all, I would say that the camp is very inspiring. Not to forget relaxing, what a good relaxation after finals, enjoyed the outdoor activities. We had Flying Fox across the river on Day 2 and Rafting on Day 3. Both activities carried out in the rain. Had great experience making our own raft in the rain, and rafting is exhausting!!

Training wise, the concept used is the VIPP method where they used alot of papers and encouraged participative interations. The programme has successfully make us generate a number of ideas on programme to be carried out for tobacco control in campus. Teambuilding activities let us interact with others regardless of etnicity.

We were conned!! They told us got air-cond room!!!
Well the guys room really do have air-cond...
Not fair de T.T

-Sungai Perak-

On the hanging bridge

A shot by RhuYann

Candid~

Celebrating Miao Chien's 20th birthday~

Just to tell you that I'm back!!

2009-05-06T19:59:00.002+08:00

It's been a month since I last post an update... and just now I noticed that I have several unfinished draft in my list of posts... Anyway since it's over I see no point completing them by now...

I was a busy girl for the last few weeks, was so busy dating, studying for final, having exams and finally camping... For the whole April I have nothing to report except for endless studies and burning midnight oil... I think I wanna get out of this kinda life for the coming semester... Perhaps a more consistent study is a better way out??? and by the way, since when I've become the studious type... Continuous study makes me feel like a nerd... Oh no!!! Anyway I guess I'm gonna kiss goodbye to dean's list for this semester as I did rather badly for some of the paper... Can't finish my Pharmacology paper on time!!! Arrggghhh!!

Anyway, exam's over now. So what i did after exam? After the final theory paper, I flew back to KL for the ceremony, then rest for a couple of days and back to Penang for Dosage Form Practical test and yes!!! Finally, truely over!!! After that?? Play time!! So Redbox is a must!! Movie as well and spent most of my time with dear, one day worth mentioning is the 29th of April.

That morning we went to Tanjung Bungah to negotiate for the price of BS accommodation with Wallace and KS. After that, KS dropped us at Gurney Plaza, and from there we started our journey around Penang... Got on a cab and search for Cendol around Georgetown and had Nasi Lemak, Laksa and mee goreng for lunch... Then OMG!! It started to rain and we gotta run to Prangin Mall in the rain... Despite the messy situation, it's rather romantic though... hahaha then, went for "Wolverine" and all of a sudden we decide to go for a ferry ride... Since I've never got onto the ferry before so there we go~ Well we ended up at Prai rather lost on where to go so we went to Pacific (ermmm i dun like it here~><') and then also the Autocity... zzz yadi yada long way back to USM... phew what a long and tiring day... Had fun at Georgetown though... Then luggage packing time gives me the biggest headache of all time... Lastly, I came home late due to the Tobacco Control training and perhaps I'll bolog on that another time... I'm done for now... no heart d... Adios~ mk

Maxis Scholarship for Excellence Award Ceremony

2009-05-06T18:55:00.008+08:00

Maxis Scholarship for Excellence Award Ceremony

Date : 24 April 2009
Time: 3.00p.m.
Venue: KL Hilton

At the ball room...
My proud dad and I ^^

Here we are, the 19 young Maxis Scholars...

So sad to missed the photography session...
Thanks to Finals...
Missed the chance to become a model for a day... T.T

New friends made... Cool people...

I flew back to KL in the afternoon on the day I finished my PNS paper, bf accompanied me to Penang International Airport and *puff* here I am at the ceremony on the following day... The ceremony was very well organized I'll say... Met some cool people and attended the very first press conference of my life... Hahaha though my words didn't come out in the media but who cares... ahhaha one word summary : happy~ and proud too... The only regret I have is the photography session that I missed.. Heck nvm what's gone is gone... So long~

Thank you Thank you...

mk.scholar

To him...

2009-04-01T02:32:00.003+08:00

I don't care
who you are,
where you from,
what you did,
as long as you love me...

mk

-home-sweet-home-

2009-03-28T16:49:00.004+08:00

I'm home!!! Yep, in Klang...
Came back for Ching Ming prayer after all the quizzes...

PNS quiz is unbearable...
I drew the structure of cocaine wrong,
forgot most of the drugs properties,
what's stable only at acid and cold condition...?
Endless mistakes...
Didn't really finish the syllabus on time... Blah...

Had a practical test on thursday...
Have miscalculated dose, unstable suspension and gritty ointment...
Sadness... Nothing seems to go smoothly for me last week...
Don't make me recall back the pharmacology quiz on tuesday...
and on top of everything,
i'm feeling unwell again...
Ahaha my nose blockage was such a buzz that i was drooling at phenylephrine, the nasal decongestant as i studied the alpha receptor agonist. Sweat de maxima~

Then yesterday, had my worst flight ever with AirAsia back to KL...
I was expecting to reach home by 11pm ended up 2hours later.
First the plane delayed its departure due to whatever reason by 45minutes, then finally arrive at KL at 10.30pm waited for my luggage at the ring but luggages from K.Kinabalu comes out instead...
Waited for half and hour and guess what??
My luggage was accidentally flew to Kuching...
Screw you!! AirAsia!!!
Next, waited(again....!!) to make a report on misplaced luggage...
Condolences to other passengers who are staying at wherever hotel, have another plane to catch in few hours...
Thanks to their idiotic carelessness, I got lectures by my dad for another half an hours on my way back home on checking in luggage...

Anyway, I got my luggage back today morning... Some staff sent it back to my door step... He was kinda rude asking direction from me... But dunno why I'm not offended, while my sis impatiently complains about him being rude... Lol...

Finally reach home around 1am...
The minute i stepped into the living room i saw a mail for me, surprisingly!
Guess who from??
To my surprise it's from the boyfriend...
It's a simple love letter and with photos and glancing back on our footsteps...
He's sooooo sweet...

Thinking of which, he was so busy going to Sg. Dua to print things (i suspect the photos) and the post office to post stuff (i suspect the letter) last week...
Well, I'll have to say he have been planning alot of things without my knowing...
Still, was so touched loooo!!!
I am not a romantic person, so these kinda efforts never cross my mind previously...
Come to think of it, I gotta pull up my socks and make some improvement myself...
don't wanna be a bad girl friend lo...
Haha eventhough I am one...
Wish me good luck peeps...

mk.love.bz

Celebrations

2009-03-14T11:20:00.002+08:00

Was freaking busy with quizzes and assignments for the pass few weeks... Well still have an assignment hanging around, neeway, just had our Dosage Form Quiz yesterday afternoon and head to Gurney for my dear roommate's (aka Shmily aka Lonely) birthday celebration... We went to Redbox and watched Dragonball Evolution~ The movie was a blast!! I just love Bulma the cool chick... Hoohoo... Lonely was so touched when Dr. Yvonne sang her Happy Birthday with the whole of our class... Cool~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROOMMATE~

WELCOME TO THE CLUB 20'S

Next, it's my beloved sista's birthday today!!! I celebrate with you when i get back home ok????? hahhaa Am very proud of that noob sister for her extracurricular achievements, but curricular wise... Hhehee no comment la.. Anyway~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY!!!!

NO MORE SWEET 16~

Right I better get back to work.. So much to do, so little time...

Pretty much because my time is occupied by someone~

Adios~ Muaxx

Sickz...

2009-03-05T12:11:00.004+08:00

Huhu long time no see... Lately I was so occupied with labs, quizzes and assignments... Still manage to play around of course... But poor me fall sick for about 1 week and jeez, wasted so much of precious time to study... My God!! Ah, am going to dispensing lab later for dosage form practical... Making suppositories later.. And cream and ointment... The procedures seems hard.. sienz... Aiks what to cure my diarrhoae??? Handmade suppositories?? Hate to feel sick!!! When everyone else are having sleeping problem such as insomnia, I am happily having problem of sleeping too much...

Huhu, semester break is approaching, this coming holiday might be heading to Perak... It's like the must-have-holiday-trip... Perak guys faster plan a good trip for us oh!!! Oh speaking of semester break, I will have to be back in Penang a month earlier to help out in the preparation of Wanderer's Anual Concert... then end of june to participate in the APPS organized by school... Sponsorships are yet to be completed... So much to do, so lazy me... Need to start preparing for the Orientation week of the next intake, aiks becoming senior d, getting older as we speaks...

Aging is an exciting process as we learn more, but nevertheless I still feel sad for the ever losing time and youth... Haha lazy d. haven't revise for my lab later, gtg tata!! muaxx!!! This post is so random, right i'm just blogging for the sake of it... blah~

mk

A normal uupdate of life...

2009-02-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

After the CNY break, I again back in Penang... Celebrated my birthday with friends... A really happy one... Thanks for the (almost) surprise... Haha had a great night... Then, lead on normal life routine of lectures, practicals, swimming, bla-bla-bla...

And here comes Valentine's day... Close friends were busy preparing their Valentine's present... Went to Queensbay for dunno how many times a week... Was expecting a quiet and lonely weekend for myself... Planned to study and finish my lab report and stuff, then here comes the invitations... Fully booked on Valentine's day... Noon went out with YewJin and the new couple to gurney... Took the Valentine's Package at Redbox Gurney and enjoy my all time favorite ~ singing!! Then continue to Queensbay and BZ joined us for a short walk... Indulged my long lost favorite Chocolate Indulgence at Secret Recipe~ Yummilicious... Then WS came and we went to look for a wedding gift for our SHE project... Next, table for 2 at T.G.I.Friday Queensbay... and lastly, end the day with Ong Bak 2 at Golden Screen Cinema QBM. Got a box full of chocolate and candy from WS, and a bracelet from YJ...

I know it's abit late... But still....

~Happy Valentine's Day~

To all my readers, my friends,

and of course, yewjin and winsoon...

-mk-

真的不懂吗？

2009-02-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

不知何时，我爱上了用中文写部落格。。。
因为可以很感性，很明白，很诗意；
又或很抽象的写出某时某刻的心情。。。

那一夜，我失眠了。
在床上翻来覆去的我又写了一小段：

又是一个失眠的夜晚，
女孩打开了笔记型电脑，
只想把此刻的心情记录下来。。。

不知为何在这元宵之夜，
女孩好像特别特别地想他，
脑里不停地幻想着种种的放肆，
幻想着把自己一头栽进他怀里，
心里有股冲动如活火山似，
只差一触便会即时爆发！

女孩仰卧着，嘴里哼着抒情歌，
不知不觉思绪飘到了从前的他，
当时意识清楚知道已走到了尽头，
却贪婪地沉溺在他温柔的怀抱中，
好像中了毒一样的不可自拔！

从幸福洋溢的调情，
演变成泪湿的吻别，
只能苦笑一个无奈，
而再哀叹一个悲哀，
悠悠飘逸空气中的，
不过就是一缕讽刺。

偶尔会回想这一路走来。。。
被逼放弃的可能，
死要面子的硬撑，
一时冲动的决定，
孤单寂寞的夜晚，
忐忑不安的心灵，
自甘堕落的活该，
若无其事的淌血，
左右为难的矛盾，
滔滔不绝的烦恼，
一言难尽的无奈，
还有种种的种种，

想了想，
再嘲笑自己的不知所谓，
到底在搞什么？
为什么人家都是那么简简单单地过，
而我非要把自己的人生弄得那么复杂？
一直坚持自己的执著，
到最后我会快乐吗？
真的能得到幸福吗？
让人伤心难过得我，
配吗？

我不懂。。。

我说我不懂，我真的不懂吗？
好像只是用来逃避的三个字。。。

有时人家用可爱来形容我，
但我觉得可笑，可悲，可恶，可怜，更为合适。。。

糟糕！自我厌恶的毛病好像变严重了。。。
一直交错在自恋与自厌之间，
快精神分裂了。。。

不写了。。。拜拜

难

2009-02-01T12:43:00.004+08:00

回顾过去叹遗憾，
放望未来惧不安，
止步当下空惆怅，
进退两难站亦难。

Happy 牛 Year!!

2009-01-31T12:32:00.003+08:00

Aloha amigos~

Imma here to wish you guys a Happy Chinese New Year!!!

May you have a great year of Ox filled with happiness and prosperity everyday!!

Well well well... Have been visiting friends house for the past two days, this year, our troop of visiting has gotten smaller then ever, as many of us are diversed to different life now, having meeting new people... Some of us are busy with their own new friends... Speaking of that, next year most probably will not be meeting SuLing dear as she will be flying to Scotland this September... Gonna miss her so much...

Alright, skip the emo and sorrow during this delighted and blessed festive season. Coome back here, I was wondering should I continue blogging? For the fact that I don't really have time to blog, well as in producing a good one.. My blog is damn boring.. you can tell from this post itself.. i have little access to the internet in my hostel, thus lack updates in weeks, sometimes months!!

I'm entering the 20's Club in 3days, and I'm not sure whether or not I should be happy of it... This year I guess there will be no celebration for me... Cuz the date is so neither here nor there.. Nvm next year when i turn 21 i'll make a huge fuss out of it..

In deep confusion I am, sometimes feeling like I have never crawl out of that trap of past, yet at times I felt like i'm falling into another hole of fear...

Great.. shouldn't have thought so much...

mk_too much a thinker

Self Evaluation of the year

2009-01-02T11:06:00.002+08:00

1 Jan 2009 - Thursday

I woke up in the morning in a self-hating mode. I hate myself for being so self-centered, self-devouring and selfish. I am always aware that one of my weaknesses is being too self-centered, so selfish to the point that I took others for granted without noticing that I did. Yet I did nothing to change, in fact I doubt that I can ever change… A joking question of a friend of mine strikes my head and kept me thinking over the things that I’ve done… Yes, I felt offended; offended by realizing how I have taken my friend for granted. I try to have him helping me to finish up what I can’t consume anymore. Even if my initial intention is to avoid food wastage, and since he has always portrait big appetite… and my excuses went infinitely, I don’t even felt like explaining myself back then, maybe because even I am not convinced by my lame excuses… I felt so bad on the spot, so embarrassed and shameful of myself, yet there’s nothing I can do but faking smile… Shit!! Another hypocritical act of mine…

Since my emotion had become rather unstable, chain reactions occur. I started to think of many other times that I have taken other people for granted, people that I love! [Reminds me of the song ‘If I were a boy’ by Beyonce] I had my mom waited for me in her car; I had him waited alone while I study for examination, and many more… For a person with pride like mine, it’s hard for me to accept the fact that I have such characteristics… Yes, I want to be a noble person with good personalities, remarkable social circle nevertheless to be everything that will eventually prepare me to lead a successful life, a life of optimum wellness. Then I started to wonder, from movies that I’ve watched, am I one of those ‘Mean Girls’?? That I am somehow over-confident, usually talk what I think without much considerations, sometimes too proud, at times offensive, occasionally mean and more…

I like being around friends, hanging out as a clique, then till I realize, when my close friends are not around, I don’t have girl friends to hang out, for I haven’t been very friendly to everyone… What is the right thing to do? Shall I entertain everyone all the time to portrait a friendly image?? I am no joker… What if I get tired? What if I’m not born an extrovert? What if I get moody? I don’t see why I need to entertain everyone at all time… Yet I feel like I’m doing it… As I blog, I try to search within my soul, asking who am I? What do I like? How I want to live my life? And that goes on, I believe in my life long learning process, these questions will never cease to appear across my mind and I will continue in search of my true self… With that I will end my moody day with a long sigh and start a new day, a new year now…

Happy 2009 peeps!!

爱的回顾

2008-12-27T21:33:00.005+08:00

前两天，跟哥通电时哥提起了以下话题。
哥问：你会要找个爱你比你爱他多的，还是你爱他比他爱你多的人呢？
我答：从前的我会选择前者，但现在的我不会想去衡量比较谁爱得比较深，只要彼此相爱就足够了。

“只要彼此相爱”
看似简单的一句话，事实上真的那么容易吗？
为何不行？是自身的执著？或对爱的恐惧？
即使被爱，也得不到相爱，只因为不懂得如何再爱。

前些天，可能因为寂寞的灵魂对爱渴望；
对某人产生了微妙的情愫。。。
他跟他有许多共同点，
打从第一眼就已被那似曾相识的感觉吸引，
再慢慢地相知相识，发现他的人生观与我挺相近，
加上蛮不错的外在条件，对自己的眼光还沾沾自喜呢！
尽管友人对他误解与排拆，我坚信自己是他的伯乐。
日子久了，谈得较多，了解较深，
发现两人的爱情观隔天离地，
不同的是，我并不会怀着会有分开的一天的心情去开始一段感情，
如果打从一开始就有了结束的打算，我不懂开始的意义。。。
想了想，原来两人好像并不合适。。。

当时对他的错觉，让我写了以下诗词：

暗恋，
这种久违的心情，近来让他给唤醒，
目光总有意无意地瞄向有他的方向，
尽管表面上看起来是多么的不在乎，
但却如此清楚地听见他说的每句话。

别人对他赞赏时，心里也沾沾自喜，
别人对他误解时，也总帮他说好话。
会想靠近，却隔着遥不可及的距离，
会想告白，但更怕日后相见的尴尬。

自认健谈的我，在他面前总是词穷，
自认勇敢的我，瞬间变得胆怯懦弱。
是自尊心作祟，坚守矜持不得追求？
或自卑心搞怪，自知不才不敢高攀？

当你向着目标发奋时，是否知道我，
也为了更靠近你一点而默默努力着？
当我看着你的背影而忽视了全世界，
耀眼的你是否也看得见不起眼的我？

距离
听人家说，
世上最遥远的距离，是我在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。。。
又有人说，
世上最遥远的距离，是明明相爱，却不能在一起。。。
也有人说，
世上最遥远的距离，是隔着一颗心的距离。。。
那如果说，
两人之间隔着的，不仅仅是一颗心，那是多远呢？

喜欢，
喜欢看你的背影，
是因为不敢正视你的轮廓；
喜欢听你的声音，
是因为能感受到你的情绪；
喜欢说你的故事，
是因为可以炫耀你的骄傲；
喜欢想你的如果，
是因为那是我唯一能做的。

现在读一读，竟想不起当初是以怎样的心情写的，是不是我又成长了一些，得以从幼稚的感情中获得解脱？又或者是始终逃脱不了过去的枷锁，就连眼前的感情也想一并逃离？爱情的逃兵，究竟要当到什么时候？

那天他问了我一个问题：爱情与友情选一，你会选择哪一样？
不管问题是否包含暗示或试探的成分，我不加思索地选择了后者。
即使我的回答会让0.001%的可能变成不可能，我始终觉得友谊比恋爱来得实际。宁愿享受当朋友的快乐，也不愿贪婪恋爱一时的幸福而落得失恋的悲哀。这就是现下我对爱情的恐惧、抗拒与不信任。这种心情能让我连喜欢的人都放弃，更何况是没感觉的呢？

It haven't change much..

2008-12-09T12:19:00.006+08:00

Had a new hair cut yesterday afternoon.. So sorry for causing ivan to be late for work and he eventually didn't work yesterday night aiks, and sorry for causing ben to be late for his badminton game in the evening.. Somehow everytime I wanna change my hairstyle, I was hoping that somehow after the physical change I can also change the spiritual me, to live on with a new me from within... However, no matter how many times i cut my hair, dye a new colour, or get a fresh new look, I still feel like the old me.. Looks like my success in escapism only last for a very short moment.. I love my life in Penang, the life that I feel so fresh myself, with new friends, new topics, new environment and all.. and most importantly, there is nothing in Penang that reminds me of the past.. The memories that I wish to remember no more.. Somethings are just unforgettable when they are already engraved on ones heart.. In Penang, the engraves are covered and burried by the hectic lifes and merry happenings, they were so unnoticeable to the point that I can deny their existances... When i was happily indulging myself as the so called new me, I came back to Klang, where emo starts kicking, and some pain starts digging... A simple word, a brief glance, a familiar route, everything seems to linked to the past that seems so clear, as if it was just yesterday... no matter how much i wish to deny it, every indication has finally prove me weak and failed to move on.. my heart still skip a beat when i hear the name.. eventhough the sore is not as excruciating as it was, it's presence is undeniable.. if one year is not enough to let go, I'll use two.. if two years are insufficient still, I'll have three... one day... i believe... i will wake up in the morning, in klang and felt no him no more..

Outings...

2008-12-05T19:20:00.005+08:00

Went for movie "Twilight" with the siblings and buddies... Forgot that it was Super Wednesday and ended up sitting at the fourth row from the screen... Looked at Edward and Bella that close had failed to make me fascinating over their chun-ness claimed by ivan and may... Was so disappointed that the romance was completely cut by whoever resposible for it... Didn't even get to see the lips touch.. ciu! Did some shopping.. Looking forward to my shopping spree when my mood strikes...

Went to pyramid again yesterday, with ivan and lilian.. Basically what i remember doing yesterday was eat. walk. eat. walk. bowling. eat again... Hahaha see see see, how to not gain weight if i have been eating so much... adui dui... Oh oh say d must announce again... I tapao-ed Ivan the NoOb again in bowling!!! Wakakakakakakkaka tak boleh tahan his noobness... No one so noob like him d one... Wanna thanks Ivan for the treat to Haagen Dazs... Freaking expensive ice-cream but every teaspoon seems to worth the money... Waiting for my roommate to treat me as promised... wakaka

^Strongly Recommended!!^ Royal Monte something...

Well was kinda down yesterday... But as followed a new awareness arises and new decisions were made... Ever since the last break up, I have been staying S.U.N- single.unavailable.and naughty rather than being S.A.D- single.available.and desperate... Just realized that I will most probably stay S.U.N in the near future... Don't ask me why... I'm just not interested...

女孩的困惑

2008-12-02T15:02:00.003+08:00

困惑，
是女孩人生中的常客；
偶尔出现，让女孩懊恼不已；
偶尔消失，让女孩误以为已觉悟。

女孩不喜欢困惑的感觉，
那让她不知所措的心情；
但困惑这东西死缠烂打，
不断的纠缠那静止的心。

好不容易维持的风平浪静，
下一秒又掀起了狂风暴雨。
女孩不想再陷身风暴之中，
能不能帮个忙把它给赶走。

一朝被蛇咬，十年怕草绳；
曾让女孩遍体鳞伤的泥沼，
女孩决不轻易再泥足深陷。

总而言之的一句话：
原来女孩什么都不想要！

If I were a boy...

2008-12-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understandand
you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

Cinderella story

2008-12-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

*Alarm Ringing*

*MK snapped the alarm and continue dreaming*

*Door knocked*

"What time edi?!?! Faster wake up and do the chores!!!"

Unwillingly, I crawled down from my bed, wash face, brush teeth, munched on some bun from the Bread Story... After breakfast, here comes the laundry... Walau.. Why so many garments one??!?!?! With endless complaints and whines and sighs, I finally finish all the laundries, thanks for some help from sista. Fetched her to tuition, slacked at lilian's house. fetch sis back again and start preparing dinner...

*Chop, chop, chop*

*Start the fire, fried fried and test flavor*

We had broccoli and scrambled egg for dinner, nice chicken soup... This will probably be my routine for the next three weeks until I fly back to Penang. Why?? Cuz my dear maid is on leave!!! Balik kampung d!!! OMG, best thing is!! My washing machine spoiled!!! I'm washing by hands, so sad that my smooth and soft little hands have gotten rough due to just ONE day of washing... What happens after 3 months?!?!?! Sadness...

OMG! x infinity

mk.dun_call_me_Mary

Moments to remember...

2008-11-26T18:39:00.011+08:00

Frankly speaking, I practically grew up with Genting... I have been visiting the City of Entertainment since I was in a baby cart, or whatever you call that thing... The first ever trip with friends that my dad allowed was to Genting, since I rather familiar with the environment there... That was in Form4 after final exam... There are a few more trips to Genting with different people and also different feelings... From making new friends, to vacation with the boyfriend, to hanging out with buddies > SEMI-D, and hosting for coursemates from outstation... Every single trip leaves precious memory and memorable moments to be glanced back...

And for this recent trip, as the most fortunate daughther ever, my dad offer to send us to Genting... Wow that was even better than hitting the Jackpot!! Aha seriously, going up by public transport is definintely not enjoyable at all... Late departure, relax travel and we arrived at First World around 2pm... Queued up for the ever crowded check-in and waited for... (No idea how long) Meanwhile waiting for the guys and some SS photography session...

I named this Angel~~

Yen Sin: "Tired waiting~"MK: "I shall indulge myself with my beloved Cheezels~ Ciu~!!"

We do best in SS-ing in boredom...

Finally got a room and we were super duper uber put down by the miniature room... Well gotta face it, First World is famous not only for the number of rooms they have to offer, but also the size of the room... Miraculously, we had 6person sleeping on two combined single bed, and 2 on the floor... Well that was an experience, sweatness to the max...

Indulge yourselve with the photos... Or else, hit the red [X] button at your wish...

-First Day-Not yummilicious at all @ Pizza Hut

Couple to-be or not-to-be?? We'll see~~After a game of snooker...

I'm in heels and still a head away... isk!!

In the cinema... James Bond 007- Quantum of Solace

Outside the -ladies- after movie... In search for the so-called Garden

~Out for some cooling wind~

Pirate ship Waiting for the Space Shot, Ting was too scared to join us wakaka

Shower cap??

Soaking wet after 2 rounds of Sungai Rajang

Holidayzzz!!!

2008-11-25T12:28:00.014+08:00

I was typing a post full of complains and whining about my life during study week and final... But then come to think of it, I guess everyone is facing the same situation during their exam and since it's over now, therefore I shall keep that to myself... Don't wanna create a negative environment in my blog though... So I shall share my joy of the first week of my first sem break with my coursemates coming to Genting and Klang, organized by MK_da_Great!!

Have been organizing a Genting trip since October, inspired by Karen the girl friend from HBP, she was suppose to get me a room and stuff.. Yadi Yada ended up I did it all by myself... Wasn't a great organizer but I'm glad my friends enjoyed pretty much last week...

Ever since my last paper, which is the FAR 152-Public Health For Pharmacy, well haven't really studied hard for that paper since most of us tends to neglet it, whatever.. That afternoon itself we went to Redbox Gurney for Karaeoke session, weeeee~~ Sorry, singing has always been my favorite activities... 10 of us was so lucky to get a VIP room and paying only student's rate... The room is LARGE and spacious, mmmm nice.. Anyway the guys are late and somehow got them to sing out their lungs, some are pretty hilarious...

Loving Roommates.. Well exclude Exam Period...

Besties, Wern Ting...

~Pretty Yen Sin~

Happiness after Exam is like Sunshine after the Rain...
The nerds from USM Pharmacy...

Way to go!! Partner~~

-Winsoon-

-Ah Pek aka Yew Jin-
-Big Head-

-Bz-

_The girls after Redbox_~Dinner at Kim Gary~

Then on the 15th Nov, I spent whole day packing my stuff to =send to cousin's house=, =to tumpang at Shmily's crib= and =to bring home=... Walau, a total of 10 bags almost cause me to faint... Wonder how did I manage to have so many things.. Finally back Klang with 4 girls, Shmily the roommate, Wern Ting the besties, Yen Sin the cutie but hot fencer, and Yieng Ping from Sarawak... Night went shopping at Aeon and introduced them to Ivan the NoOb...

付出

2008-11-24T01:17:00.000+08:00

在一段感情里，
俩人一定不是平等的；
其中有一方会付出比较多，
而另一方就会接受比较多，
常人看来，付出的看似比较吃亏，
而接受的看来总很幸福地享受着；
以前的我不懂，默默付出快乐吗？
曾问过友人：“为何有人会傻傻的，不断地付出？”
得到的答案，让我在感情事上有更深一层的领悟；
友人对我说：“其实最后得到最多的，付出者也。”
对于那句话，我想了很久，好像也明白了其中的意义。
你，参透了吗？

We were apart, yet together we gather...

2008-10-03T20:36:00.004+08:00

Had a gathering today with some ACSian at Klang Parade today... Ivan showed up at my crib in the morning, waking me up from my sweet dream, Showed him some photos from USM kacau-kacau abit and off we go to KP...

Had a game of bowling with IVAN THE NOOB, Ah Wee, and Poh Wei... Wakaka am proud to declare MK as the winner of the day... Not very high marks, but tapao Ivan and Zen Wee enough to make me proud and happy... Haha, whenever this happens, I MUST post a blog and loudly shout out:

"IVAN!!! YOU NOOB!!!"

After bowling, we headed to OldTown Kopitiam to have our lunch and of course, our endless chit-chatting begins... All of us shared our new Uni-life experiences, and time ticks as we speak... We finally end our gathering at 7pm, after sitting at OldTown for more than 4 hours... Wakakaka

It's nice to meet up with some of our old classmates, not that old actually, but certainly everyone agrees that says who that Uni life is easy for STPM student??!! Most of us have been studying harder than ever in university... One thing for sure, everyone is enjoying their university lifes...

The day after tomorrow I shall fly back to Penang again... Back to my hectic life with 3 Presentations, 2 Research Projects Report, 1 Lab Report, 1 Quizzes and the Final Exam waiting ahead of me... So wish me luck peeps... I shall be needind plenty of it...

Us at Old Town... Not much changes at all...

But shall say the guys now look better than before...

mk.falling sick

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-10-02T00:02:00.003+08:00

Lesson of the day:

Never . Never . Ever attempt to go to Genting Highland during super peak season... You'll ended up go all the way there and find no parking then head back home... Well at least this is what happened to me today... Says who that the economic is bad and everyone is having a hard time with the ongoing inflation?? Haiz, lazy to describe how freaking crowded it is up there... Even Awana is full house, Skyway also full house... Crazy... So we ended up stop for a cuppa pearl tea at Chin Swee Temple... Even there is fully parked... Then back, sleep for the whole day... What can a say more...

Selamat Hari Raya~

Maaf Zahir dan Batin~

Imma Love Singing~

2008-09-30T15:18:00.016+08:00

Two weeks ago, imma took part in a singing competition organized by USM Chinese Society... After some training, I got through the first round and successfully entered finals... With that, I have asked my coursemates to come and support me during final, well more on Shmily doing the job, collecting names and money, booking tickets and distributing tickets... Anyway, did some shopping for the outfit and there comes the final...

After rehearsal, I felt I have more or less overcome my stage fright... Which was such an achievement. Anyway, cut the process, straight to the point, just wanna share my joy that I got the Most Popular Contestant Award and also the 1st Runner Up for the competition... Kinda proud with that despite some regrets for not being able to get champion.. Still, a great experience!!

Talk so much for what?? Photos time!!

To my friends, thanks for your support!!!

special thank to shmily aka roommate!!
ALthough she only make it to the event right before my turn to sing...
Sam Pat po always dating dating only...

My besties in USM...
Wern Ting - First friend made in USM
Karen - Besties since Klang, member of clique 15
Shmily - SamPat roommate

水瓶座终极完美分析

2008-09-29T20:11:00.002+08:00

几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。

一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。

水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。

水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。

一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。

水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。

这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。

自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。感情投入的越多越是伤的重。最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。

爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。所以，不轻易说。

只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。

人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。

当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。

只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。

星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。

水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生

我还是我

2008-09-29T16:18:00.008+08:00

三个月前的我，
带着一颗受伤的心，
离开了19年来熟悉成长的家，
离开了疼我爱我的家人朋友，
看似和别人一样的各奔前程，
实是自己一个人的单身潜逃。

到一片陌生的土地，
尽管内心是恐惧的，
却也还期待着，
不一样的明天。

既然决定忘记不愉快的过去，
就要笑着迎接新生活的到来，
看着亲切热情的新朋友，
心伤的疼很像也不再那么深刻。

药剂系的学生，
并非想象中的那么无趣，
大家都是有着相同梦想，
因为梦想而相聚在一起，
朝着共同的目标努力着。

其实大家都很爱玩，
但认真起来都很可怕，
对于我们系友的团结，
我只能用感动来表达。

三个月后的我，
心里的伤已经痊愈，
短短的三个月，
我。。。
成长了，勇敢了，
不疼了，不怕了，
自信了，自觉了。

但我还是我，
还是执著的水瓶座。

The life that I live...

2008-09-28T15:23:00.004+08:00

Let me first show you the reason I came home late on last holiday... I was involved in PharmEx, a pharmaceutical exhibition during USM Convocation Week... This is me, sadly doing my job >> Writing Receipt zzz

I was assigned under the Clinical Pharmacy Department which is supposed to be the most interesting department, but since I'm only in Year1 I wasn't allow to perform any clinical test...

Alright, Happy-Go-Lucky me finds joy anywhere...

Especially in front a camera...

Every tuesday is our Laboratory work... Here we are doing PhysioLab, busy drawing the slides from our observation through the microscope... Can you see how serious am I??

Try to draw this slide... Zzzz Don't ask me what tissue is this, I forgot after drawing more than 30 slides...

After study part, of course not to forget to share the joy of campus life...
This is shmily and I indulging in our BR double scoop in wafer...

Coming up next:

Mid-Autumn Festival

Over all, I have celebrated the Lantern Festival thrice in USM, first night ss-ing with some girls... We played lantern, candles, ate mooncake, drink green tea and together we countdown to the mooncake festival.

Second celebration with more first year pharmacy student, we laughed, we sang, we greeted, we shouted, we screamed, we cheers... We were united, which was a moment to remember... We will stay united for the remaining years... Let's plan for Christmas and New Year Celebration...

The Girls~

The Guys~

=Us=

Third celebration at DTSP

I'll stop here for the time being.. Hope to update you guys more in the coming days..

mk

Back in town...

2008-09-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

I know I have very much negleted this blog... Yup very true indeed.
In fact i don't really feel like blogging at the moment... Influenced by roommate??? Become lazy to type??? Hmmm I wonder... Perhaps few days later...

mk

What my birthday means???

2008-08-21T15:59:00.002+08:00

February 3, 1989

Lucky Color: Saffron

Personality Strengths: Focus, Care

Personality Weakness(es): Over-confidence

Successful Career Path: Fashion

Sense of Humor Style: Campy

Adjectives to Describe You: courageous, enterprising

Description: A hip non-conformist who truly stands for his/her beliefs - you are out to make a difference in this world, and you have a realistic chance of success. You have always been self-driven and derive your inspiration from those close to you. Ambitious - and why shouldn't you be - the sky is the limit for you!

Short Shoutout!

2008-08-21T13:05:00.003+08:00

Have been back in Klang for 4 days... Was busy with outings everyday... First night itself I met up with the buddies, SEMI-D... Dino was absent though... Second day out with the girls... Catch up with Lilian at her crib... Yest again whole day with SEMI-D, although most of our plan didn't work out such as Greenbox cancelled due to Ivan's busy in the morning, movie tickets are sold out, not in the mood to skate, bowling closed due to competition... Walau, whole day don't know doing what also... Basically what we did is we get to watch Red Cliff at my house and clubbing at Bar-celona at night... One word >> TIRED.... So today is my rest day cuz tml got appointment with my beloved siblings and cousin.. Fuh, see I'm busy even during holidays.. AHAH alright just kidding can? That's all for now...

mk

Eric bro~!! You going back to UUM tonight d hor??? Take care looooo... Free time contact me ya!!! Hahaha boring time call me la... Not boring also call lo *wink*wink

Some days in Penang...

2008-08-19T19:18:00.008+08:00

Group 7 :

Guys : Ban Hing and Chun Ming at the back

Girls : Poh Hui, Lai Man aka Class Rep, Shiaw Hui, MK, Poi Kuan, Sook Yee
Faci in Pink : I DUN know HOW to say his name >> Dun How

My direct senior, Kee Hooi and I..

Who says I look like ginna??? Wakaka :P

We were bored at the Keselamatan Talk...
Thus, copying Physiology notes...

New friends made...
From left : Hai Feng from USM Health Campus, KK; May Yee_Accountancy at USM Main Campus; Shmily; MK; CK_Achitecture at USM Main Campus.

Us : SS-ing in the toilet before movie...
Cute Shu Fen in the middle...

B-boy!! B-girl!! Lets make some noise!!
Hip-hop style konon...

Posing before we say good bye...

A picture tells a thousand words...

2008-08-18T19:46:00.007+08:00

As promised, I finally get to post some photos up.. Enjoy~~

At the Aerospace Exhibition... That night Shmily and I get to see Jupiter via telescope...

At Bon Odori with my roommate, Shmily... Ya that mask got us lots of attention... Too bad, they are sold out!!

Two kawaii Japanese.. From USM also... coolness...

Of course, never forget to show my kimono look... Alright cut the Bon Odori..

Back in No Time!!!

2008-08-17T19:06:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps, for your information I'll be back in Klang tommorow afternoon... And pray for me a safe journey back k?? Can't wait to see my beloved family... They missed me SOOOO much... What to do, I'm too adorable.. Haha I missed them too kay?? And yeah of course not to forget my another beloved bro Eric... Damn nice can finally meet after 7weeks of seperation... Although I'm happy here I still can't help to miss him once in awhile... Bro, a call that you made do makes my day... Although at times I called him till low credit la, dunno what's wrong with hotlink service, call Activ10 also so expensive... Cheat ppl's money wei!!!

By the way, just explaining why I didn't go home early as according to my actual situation I can go home on Thursday itself... But then... due to the Convo exhibition that I took part in, my duty last till today noon... So yadi yada I'm late home and I missed Ben's birthday celebration!!! aiks got people 20 years old d... Old already loooo... Hope he'll like the present that I bought all the way from penang... Wakakaka

Although I'm late home but I never waste my holiday playing time... On friday, Shmily and I went to Queensbay and walk whole day there... This time I say whole day I really mean it.. as we reach there at noon and we left there at midnight... Basically because shmily got a friend visiting us from health campus... Future doctor wei.. Haha, not handsome but definitely a nice dude... And for that outing I spent alot again... Aiks.. Sorry!!! I just can't help it... Imma shopaholic desuka!!!

Okay, just to note something good about my PharmEx, I get to know a couple of seniors then they are all nice people... Checked my body fat mass today... 20.5%... My BMI is just ideal.. 18.5.. Fuh no more under weight... Healthy wei!! hahaha although I gained weight, but seriously... Who don't when they come to penang??? hahah Alright just a lame excuse... I just gained weight but not fat kay??? So bk don't you dare call me PP... :P

Okie wanna head back to my room d... I think I will upload photo's when I'm back home...
tatala...

mk

One Week To Go...

2008-08-12T15:55:00.003+08:00

Hey people, is me again... This week is relatively more free than other days, Convex is coming up, my duty schedule falls on the 14th, 16th and 17th and guess what?! My Sunday duty is only till 12.30pm!!!! Which means by right I can go back on Sunday afternoon if not for the stupid super late schedule... I tell you!!! Those "PEOPLE" really sucks when comes to speak of efficiency!!! Ish!!!

Ah... Before I'm here I often said that we can still keep in touch via the greatest invention >> Internet but I find it hard to even find time to update myself and keep in touch with my old friends... My hotmail inbox is always loaded with unread mails, my blog is always lack of updates... I feel so wasted for not having time to blog as there are so many happening that i wish to record in the past few weeks...

Remember I mentioned bout Bon Odori?? Ok, finally a short paragraph for that over-back-dated outing... Bought a bus ticket for RM5 to go to Esplanade to attend the imfamous Penang Bon Odori, saw many cute japanese girls in Kimono, Tako tako is yummilicious, join the fun in Bon Odori Dance, bought a fan, a mask and watched the best fireworks in my life... What else?? Photos will be uploaded later, PERHAPS... Haha...

Have been getting along very well with my dear roommate, in fact we are too close together, measuring the time we get to know each other... Most people thought that we have long known each other.. We are similar in many aspects and makes us same of a kind... Plus the talkative and extrovert nature of both of us we are actually quite welknown among our coursemates... Last week we found out that we like the same flavor of HAll's sweet which is the Green Tea flavor we were shocked as most people feel weird bout that flavor... One fine morning, we were both thinking bout a same song and we were thrilled by that... Kakaka one thing fortunate is that we both have different taste on the type of guys we like... Phew, later both like same guy then cham...

One day we grouped into the same group for nursing home project we get another 2 malay girls and they introduced themselves as Mar and Mas, both roommates as well... Ever since, we call them Marmas... Then all of a sudden I come up with an introductio for both of us, since I'm Sue Chin and my roommate is Shi Min, you can call us SuShi... Lol sorry just another lame act of mine... :P Okay, enough of my roommate...

Next is the Bungalow Stay (BS) that seniors organised for us... Shhh, this is an informal orientation for all chinese only... Again we were grouped into 8 groups of 8... I'm the group leader for my group and in fact I'm the only female leader among all 8 groups, lol ShiMin aka Shmily keeps on say that it was a funny scenerio to see all 7 tall guys and petite me to go in front when they call upon the leaders... Bah, as usual I barely slept at night in this kinda trips... Chitty chat with friends and seniors and rest for an hour or two at dawn... Achievement from the trip, I was the Best Female Participant (proud giler) and was also elected as the Female Chinese Representitive for my year... Was freaking shock when I know I was elected, but nevertheless happy to be entrusted by my peers... My partner is a STPM student as well and he is from Johor, heard people say that he is very keng... Haha but i dunno la... BS is awesome except for it's super exhausting and nearly caused me sickness after the trip...

Well there are happenings in almost everyday of my life and I regret that I don't have the opportunity to record them all here... Haha some of them I also forget d... Just wait for the photos to be uploaded la... A picture speaks a thousand words, then I also no need to type till so kang ko no??? Hahaha

Phew today's post is long wor... Thanks to the stupid pharmex meeting I cannot go back to my room and have my sweet nap... Have class at night samor, 8-10pm... Sienzzzzzzz Oh went to Gurney last week for Redbox, but voice wasn't good at all, haiz everyday stay outside eat outside food pulls me to further imperfections... Acnes pop out like nobody's business, getting darker thanks to UV from Mr. Sun, leg muscles gets bigger and bigger due to endless walk in and out of campus and lastly, I still love my campus life...

That's all for today... MUAXXX

mk

I'm doing better than great here...

2008-07-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

Yo ho peepow!!! Am waiting for youtube to buffer my currently favorite drama "Fated to love you" So got sometime to blog blog abit here la...

Hehe lilian, go go join fencing... This Fencing Club in USM is not a part of co-k, so very easily we can get to register... Cf wanna join Kung fu Club... ~Everybody Love Kung Fu Fighting~ I can't join cuz if I join I will become Kung Fu Panda!!! HeeYa!!! with humongous eyebags... wakakaka University life is just awesome...

Somehow I am glad that I come so far away from home, as not only that I get to learn to be more independent and tough... If I am studying at KL, I'm sure that I'll go home every weekend and bring my whole week laundry back for my maid to wash... But here??? Everything D.I.Y... During weekend I have more time to study and play and also get involved with various activities... Ain't my life more colourful so???

Actually I'm still too busy to update a real blog.. Don't ask me why I got time to watch drama but not blog k??? Watching drama once a week at internet cafe is like my only entertainment here... Just got 3 more assignments today, am the leader for a nursing home project so... gotta be responsible abit la... Looking forward to the BS next weekend, so this weekend aim is to finish up my assignment on literature evaluation... Go Go MK!!! Fighthing!!

I think I can do it... hahaha yup see me so friendly also know I have made many friends la, still making new friends every single day... Slowly la~ Oh yea, cousin brought me out for dinner today, cf tags along... We had durian and I had Char Kueh Teow... happy~~

Lastly, just a reply to Sherlyn :
"I guess I was lucky in STPM... I really enjoyed my Form6 life and in fact I actually played the most in Form6, still remember I use to play Badminton with lilian every week or once a fornight in Lower6, then after that addicted to Bowling... Chess club every Friday... Hmmm I guess form6 is not just study hard but real important is to study smart.. Search within yourself and get a study method that really suits you... "

People say Uni life is easy for STPM student... But I just have to strongly disagree with it as my life is really busy and hectic... For example guess what time I slept yesterday night??? Freaking 4am kay??? Just because I wanna copy my lecture notes in advance of my lecture... Actually was pressured by my "also-quite-hardworking" but playful roommate... Shi Min Haha we both practically siao together, eat together, sleep together, study together... What also together... Glad to get a roommate that is of same channel and frequency as I...

KK my youtube have long done buffering... So till next time... I'll try and update on last saturday Bon Odori night... Muaxx miss you people~~

mk

Short ShoutOut From USM again...

2008-07-22T11:52:00.002+08:00

Hey people, my life lately have gone way too happening for me to blog about it... Too many things to share, yet too little time... Please bare with my lack of updates, I promise you'll get a satisfying one very very soon... So stay tuned for the next update... I hope I can find time to blog cause have been too busy on everything!!! Lecture notes, Lab reports, Literature evaluation assignments, Shopping, Spending, Playing, sub-Orientations, Outings, and so on, so forth... And just an hour ago, I sign myself up in Chess Club and Fencing Club as well... Have a Convo week activity - PharmEX coming up in a month... And many many more yadi yada... Well Just imagine how busy I am kay??? Hahaha so please forgive me ya...

Miss you all muaxxx

mk

Hello!!

2008-07-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps!!! Again I'm not blogging with my laptop... Only because there is no Wi-fi coverage in my room, Noob USMHotspot!!! And I'm lazy to bring my lappie down to the cafeteria... So now I'm in a cyber cafe near my hostel... Hehehe, I can sense there are people missing me somewhere... Well I plan to say 'everywhere' but I'm afraid that I'll get rotten eggs throwing towards me from everywhere instead... Hehe, looking at my ability to blog and crap you should know that I'm doing great here...

But it's either I'm heartless/cold-blooded or I'm strong and tough that I'm not homesick... Well, I was homesick at the first week, but soon enough that I have pull myself together and live a life as a university student far away from home... Sometimes I missed my friends as well, but not CF aka Karen, as I get to see her very often here and fyi, she just sitting beside me playing Gold Miner.. LOL, Eric asked me to update my blog more regularly, but please understand that I'm a busy Pharmacy first year student ya~~

Actually I have been typing this since 2 something but I stopped for the drama Fated To Love You so... hehe Blogging tergendala... anyway gotta go now tata~~~

mk

Greetings from USM, Penang Island!!!

2008-07-08T14:17:00.004+08:00

Hey readers, well I wonder if there's any left who will visit my page daily, ussually, gradually, occasionally or whatever, even myself visit my blog only once in a blue moon... Everyone is busy with their Uni life, and so do I... Hehehe, Erm I'm in the library actually, supposed to be learning how to use KRISALIS, a service to find books and jurnals, and also browsing through the website called medscape for Jurnals regarding Pharmacy issues for my first assignment... But then, no idea how to use the service and found many jurnals that I barely understand, I decide to steal some time for blogging...

Yesterday was my first day to lecture and I was lucky that none of my classes got cancelled by whatever reasons... Unlike Eric, the less fortunate one, whose classes always cancelled... And yup life as a Pharmacy student ain't easy in USM... My faculty is the only one that requires us to wear formal EVERYDAY to lectures and lab... Wanna portrait professionals image konon... Haha so ya, in USM, if you see students in formal attire, most probably he/she is a pharmacy student... fainted*

The more unfortunate event is that there will be no bus stopping near our school... So from my hostel, my roommate and I will have to walk approximately 1 km to my school... Everyday~~~~ In FORMAL attire samor!!! Haha, okay, enough whinning, I always do best in complaining, but my concept is, done complaining?? Alright, pull yourself together and life on!!! Yup, current aim is to score at least GPA of 3.75 out of 4.0... Haha since most people here are from Matriculation, when they here that you're from STPM they'll give the look as if you are very good... SO... STRESSSSSS lol, nolar mainly caused by my own pride and egoism... kk gtg for now... tata

mk

Turning Over A New Leaf...

2008-06-23T12:19:00.002+08:00

My blog seems lifeless this month... Why is that so?? I cannot give you an answer myself... Till today, 23 June I only manage to update 5 short posts, which to me is a failure... What so ever, am leaving to Penang this coming Friday morning... Will be back in August, look forward to my return will you???

There's alot of preparation to do before I set of to my university life... I'm still in a dilemma whether should I bring my Mr. Fei to Penang... That big dog is gonna occupy big portion of my luggage, but I can't sleep well without it!! :P By the way, Mr.Fei is my biggest and favorite soft toy that I got as a gift 3 years back from my ex... Used to love it soooo much that my sis gets jealous of it... Haha, that Fei had occupied half of my bed for 3years and made me always complaining bout my bed being too small...

Besides, gotta do some more shopping on glosseries, toiletries, and some basic needs of living... Also wondering should I bring my comforter?? Lol I might as well transfer my whole room to Penang... Luckily still got a cousin in Penang so will go and kacau him when in trouble..

So many things to do, so little time... I'll update again later.. tata

mk

Penang Here I come!!!

2008-06-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

Yoohooooo~~
Hey I'm just back from my Genting trip; the last trip before Local university intake and the trip was real fun!!! Hehe Err everyone knows bout genting so I need not to elaborate more...

Yup! I got my first choice which is Pharmacy in USM... Was rather regret and down yesterday thinking to go so far away from home, and leaving many of my friends in Klang Valley... Just now got to know that JiaXin and Caren going to USM as well... So yey!!! Girl friends are there together so it's pretty exciting...

One more thing bout Penang is the FOOD!!!! Haha, some of my friends are worried that I might come back 4 years later as a PP.. PP stands for Pui Po (Fat Lady) due to my Tham-Jia-ness and Penang's nice.delicious.tasty.yummylicious FOOD!!! So hehe I'll try to control my diet k???

So friends, even though we will not be meeting each other often, check out my blog and see how I'm doing in life ya?! Cheerio!

mk

Everybody Love Kung Fu Fighting~~

2008-06-08T01:46:00.002+08:00

Yay, I watched Kung Fu Panda today!!! The movie is AWESOME!!!
Behold THE Big Fat Panda!!!
Anyway, just an awesome movie to recommend here~~

Oh I so miss Karaoke d... Have less than a month holiday to the university intake, I'm happy about that but gotta grab the remaining time to play more~~

mk

Mood Swings

2008-06-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

Hello peepow-peepow sekalian~~
MK is back again!!! Sorry for showing the emotional side of me here yesterday... I don't mean to quit blogging... YET
Let me tell you some cute things about the people I'm hanging out with lately... When it comes to hang out buddy, I just gotta first think of Eric the Brada!!! This fella ar, nothing good!!! Only know how to bully me... Somemore always say I stupid, T.T just because I lose in chess and bowling... Nvm, someday I'll get my revenge :P Today brought my laptop to his house for his brother to check out what's wrong with it, then sticked my arse to his couch and watched Step Up 2 with him... Dancing Rockx!! But I never fancy Shuffer though, more interested with Gliding... Wait, quit dancing... back to brada, he is the guy with the smallest stomach that I have ever known... Whenever out for meal with him will be funny~ in McD he took Fillet O Fish while I munched on my Spicy Chicken McDeluxe, Pizza he can't even finish 3 slices of regular pizza, lol tak boleh la... He have this theory that "prettier girls are bigger liar"~ And!!! According to him, I'm trustworthy, so you get the isi tersirat la... But to me his eyes are blinded by bird feaces... :P Beneath the surface of what it might appeared to be, we are two lonely souls that lean on each other... Or maybe just me leaning on him~~
Coming up next, Ivan the Gay Beh Kia... Ivan ni, my chess, bowling, skating, and most importantly, MissBimbo Kaki!!! Not to forget bigger bully than Eric!!! Don't get me started when he team up with Kkok... Hahaha, he introduced this missbimbo.com to me two days ago... And we are competing our levels as well as IQ of our bimbos... See~ Ivan playing missbimbo, tell me how gay is that??? Kinda fun game to kill time... Ivan is always on for activities and outings... A person who can't stand people daring him... Like yesterday he appeared at my gates on 1.30am with Eric... Tapao-ed roti canai for my and bro as supper... Cracked jokes and leave at 3am... That was hella experience for me!!! Haha, yea besides being a bully and a dota freak who always farming~ stun~ and die~!! He is a fun guy to hang out with... Still, I can't help but to end this paragraph with Ivan..... YOU NOOB!!!

I have been bothered by things that don't even exist lately, which contributes to my not in the mood to blog... Not exactly not in the mood just, unable to get my words out in order... Bah... My mood swings extremely easily... As Eric says I'm a Sunshine girl, I might get pretty scary when the rain pours... Don't play play... Well, I not suffering from split-personality, so throw whatever you are thinking!! :P

Okay, it's been some time since I last updated a long post... I'm satisfied... You're not??? Stay tuned~~

mk.winked

2008-06-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

I hate crapping..
I hate emptiness..
I hate faking that it's all cool..
I hate being emo here and show that I'm weak..
I hate you..

Can I quit blogging??? Again???

mk.devastated

-N o o B-

2008-06-01T10:43:00.003+08:00

Oh hello~ Won't be blogging for sometimes... I hate online using my desktop... Super Snail Speed can kill okay?! Something is wrong with my laptop setting and configurations so wait till I figure it out.. Dammit... Besides, having outing tomorrow... Pyramid it is... Kinda hoping to go for ice skating... But then due to my noobness, drawn back... See, my blog is short and simple lately, not so much of craps... Like it or not... :P

Currently into TVXQ - O' Jung Ban Hap Dance Steps.. 3 minutes heat only~~ tata

mk.bored

-Z e r o-

2008-05-31T00:43:00.003+08:00

Eric bro just complained that my blog berkulat d... Come on la it's only two days ago since I last updated my blog... If that long my blog can berkulat, S 0-0 n's blog I guess become fossil d lo...
Not only that, but he also said my blog has no content... Not to say sad to hear that, but gotta admit that I'm not a good blogger...
Well just to let you know, Narnia - Prince Caspian is pretty satisfying... Nice to see King Peter and King Edmund the handsome... Prince Caspian Tak Boleh la... Kakaka... I've just done my NUS hostel application... I pretty much don't know what I am doing with my life lately... Hahaha and the fact is---> I AM NOT IN THE MOOD OF BLOGGING AT ALLLLLLLLL...
Lastly, my life and soul are SO empty that words from me are empty as well...

Chao~

mk.emptiness

Don't Stay

2008-05-28T13:55:00.003+08:00

I am giving tuition to my little brother and we found a little emo-piece of poem... It looks like my brother's handwriting but he was swearing that it was't his product... Anyway, it was in a small piece of note and I think it's cute!! This is how the "poem" sound...

Don't Stay
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me!!!
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Sometimes I need you to go!!!

I can't help to blog about it as it's so cute and to avoid embarassments, I did some investigations on it... And guess what I found??? Lol it's Don't Stay from Linkin Park.. Again I'm impress with my stupidity... Lalala~~ The lyrics just best describe me.. Let's share it here...

Linkin Park - Don't Stay lyrics

Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm
In disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I Need you to go
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'mIn disbelief
I didn't know
Somehow I Need to be alone
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away (2x)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your things I snatched from you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay (3x)

mk.not so emo

Happy Birthday...

2008-05-27T23:05:00.003+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday

Cheng_Uncivilized

Bad Day

2008-05-27T08:56:00.002+08:00

I started off my day with the worst morning ever!!! I'm clueless of what's going on with my life... I am always able to set my priorities right but not now... Frustrated... Could it be for I have not been able to focus on abstract future?? Or merely because I have just other shit in my mind... Eventually it's a bit of both... And two wrongs definitely WON'T make a right...
Right, I AM emo-ing at this moment... Which is the biggest reason why I'm blogging at this early hour... Yes, 9am is EARLY for I usually sleep my morning away and awake at noon... I'm still exhausted over the 3 days of outings... Saturday to KL then Pyramid; Sunday went for Japanese Buffet at Jogoya, JW Meriot Hotel, KL; Yesterday whole day at Starhill then night at Setapak... Want me to elaborate more?? Maybe next time...
I'm feeling a little dizzy, and mild headache... It feels like hung over, but I have not taken a single drop of alcohol yesterday... When more things don't turn out the way I want them to be, my life goes from bad to worse... Why can't local university be more efficient with the intake... I'm sick of waiting for one after another outcome of applications... CCM scholarship still no sound no picture, have obviously failed in YKhazanah and Shell... and no idea how's Y.Pahang... FED UP!!!
Yesterday went to PV6, Melati Utama, Setapak to celebrate Cheng's birthday and visited TARians condominium... A very basic space of living with basic needs of living... All I remember are matresses in the rooms, messy and unmade 'beds', cupboard for clothes, washed towels and clothes hanging in the living room and balcony, many study tables each with a pc/laptop on it... Waaaa, I sort of foresee my university life staying away from home...
Blogging is a good way to release the imbalanced.negative energy in me as I was so emo and moody just now that I feel like if I could just die!!! [no la, committing suicide is the last thing that will come across my mind, homocide will comes first] But now, after some typing and crapping, I sort of forgot what I'm emo-ing on... Well not exactly forget but the unpleasant feeling don't get on me that much now...
The biggest problem with me now is that I can't accept changes in things, life and people around me... This is just another period of transition in my life, when I'm changing from a high school student to an university student; when reaching a step closer or further to my dream; when I'm recovering from a relationship; but everything is so unstable that anything can change drastically in a blink of an eye...
Tomorrow if my appeal success, I'll be leaving to Singapore; if my appeal failed I'll stay local; local if I get USM, I'll be leaving ALOT of my friends and head to Penang; If I cant's get pharmacy in local, I'm going to SG and gamble my future; there're so many IF and I have to be physically and mentally prepared for each and every possible outcome which indirectly exerted a form of stress and pressure which are causing my depression...
Love wise, there's nothing much I can do for the time being... Facing seems to be the hardest way... Therefore I'm doing what I do best; escapism and ignorance... Time please fly faster, just let me have something to do and keep me busy away from thinking of you... Endurance and pride both has a limit, I have exceeded mine and I'm aware that more effort will bare no fruits, therefore I surrender... I hope I can stick to my vow for this time... Just this once...

mk.fallen

I had a dream about you...

2008-05-25T11:56:00.004+08:00

Last night I went to bed extremely early, merely because I'm exhausted for the day... Woke up as early as 7am to attend the NUS Welcome Tea... Manage to get Eric to accompany me there and listen to some briefing, approached seniors for some questions, have some refreshments and headed back to Klang to get to Redbox, Pyramid... This trip is the most expensive trip I have ever been to karaeoke.. THANKS to SuLing, who suggested us to go all the way there with a most unexceptable excuse of that she's afraid of Greenbox Bukit Tinggi being HAUNTED... Well I definitely don't buy that, still for BFF calling so I went Redbox lu... Asked Eric along as well.. SuLing, just to say, NO NEXT TIME PLEASE.. I'm not that rich wei.. Tak Boleh Tahan outings like these... :P Still, I am VERY HAPPY as I get to SING~~ SINGER DIVA wanna-be me...

So pat toh with Eric whole day at night also dreamt of him... KAU LAT!! So at night since I have nothing better to do I went to bed early, 10pm you say early not?? Had a mild nightmare of arguing over small matter with Eric and woke up at 1.30am... Then continue to sleep back kakaka... Speaking of arguing with Eric, we never quarrel with each other ever since we become good friends... LOL Somemore till now still we have many things to talk about.. I wonder when will I get sick and bored with him??? Wahaha, just kidding... Oh I know you are reading, Eric, I very much treasure and appreciate your friendship and brotherhood... So Best Friend Forever Ya!!!
p/s: when want go swimming??

Going out for lunch, so till my next update... Bon Voyage~

mk

Check!!!

2008-05-22T16:50:00.004+08:00

Oh I just LOVE playing Chess...
My first approach on chess is on another board game which is the chinese chess a.k.a "Xiang Qi", during primary school, no idea when... My cousin taught me how to play and I remember our grandpa loves to kacau and advise us what to move and what not to... He sort of missed the point of "Guan Qi Bu Yan" which means audience/observer shall not speak...
But for Chess, my first time playing will be in Form 1.. When I blurly participated in Bukit Kuda Chess Closed Competition in 2001... Imagine I went and participate a game that I have never played before... Can't comprehend what was I thinking back then... But ever since, I have been interested in this brain straining board game...
Due to my ketidak-cekapan, I never get to find out about my school chess club... I missed their General Meeting EVERY YEAR without fail, from 2001-2005... I wonder how I did that... lol So when did I actually started to be active in chess??? I think it's somewhere around 2004/05.. I finally get to join BK Chess club in Form5 eventhough I missed their general meeting, and to my surprise, my club teacher assigned me a post without my knowing.. So I actually get a certificate of appreciation without doing anything.. Cuz I'm the Ketua Taman, but Chess club don't have a taman... LOL...
I was also lucky to be chosen by my teacher to participate in Chess MSSD Klang.. Out-of-school exposure is always good as I duwanna look back at my school days and see only classrooms... Well that's my first and last time in Chess MSSD, and due to insufficient experiences and skills, I didn't win lo... Still I won 4 out of 7 games; not bad la... Our school team were at the 6th placing but only Top 5 is awarded... LOL not pro enough, what to do?? And to my surprise, I met Chye Soon [my once upon a time crush] at the competition, somemore he's those top10 player in Klang.. So pro... Hey, if you're reading this So-on; don't get proud and bloated ya... :P
p/s: I got some correction to do here.. ChyeSoon says he was in Top4 for 3 years... Haha not Top 10... Aiks, wrong information for you all SORRY~
Besides, I also have a couple of friends who are chess kaki(s).. Like Ben a.k.a Sifu; Cheng a.k.a Kor [back then]; Nicholas; Jia Yi, Chei Tgeng... Aiks but my girl friends don't play chess, tak syok... Oh speaking of this makes me miss old secondary school days... I always kena tapao by Sifu and Cheng when I play with them..Too noob d they say... Then I joined ACS Chess Club and have been active in it... Here I now more chess kaki like Alex and Ivan..Most of the girls in the club DO NOT play chess, lol bo pian..
Now my more regular chessmate will be my bro(s), both biological bro and wanna-be bro a.k.a Eric... At home I always tapao my little brother who are obviously lack of experiences... Then Eric, wakaka I still manage to beat him once in a while... Like just now I just beat him in ChessHere.com, while Yahoo! Chess are having somewhat Version Conflict and many seems to have problems using it... Wahaha still in a winning mood and therefore I crap so many nonsense about my chess experiences here.. Just wanna say... ERIC, YOU NOOB!! Haha, I hope that will get onto his nerves~

Bored already??? Me too... Adios~

mk.noob chess player

The Route Not Taken...

2008-05-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking about the poem that we studied in Form4...
With the title 'The Route Not Taken'... The author/poet sort of saying he chose the route less traveled and eventually succeed.. I admire his courage to pursue his dreams.. Although he mentioned about he will never know what he would be if he chose the other route.. Just like me, but I'm a coward, I do not dare to choose the route less traveled.. I'm refering to the course on Chinese medicine that I gave up...

For a couple of months, ever since I finished my another level of education-STPM, I fell into many dilemmas and there are many decisions to be made... At this stage of transition, every decision I make will lead me to a whole different path from another... Again and again I struggled between local and foreign universities... Little that I know, that things are never about what I want..

A CGPA of 4.0 never guarantee you anything... Take note : I said NOTHING!!! It only gives you higher chance to get your choices of selections... Not that MK here cannot face a tingle bit of failure, but somehow it's frustrating to not know what's waiting ahead of us... Everyone knows how bad it feels to hope and look forward for something for so long and did not get it at the end.. When dreams that are so close cannot be materialized... In many ways the dream appears to be... For the course you worked so hard to get in, for the love you waited so long to hold... Gone. In a blink of an eye, and a snap of the fingers..

When I was still a SPM leaver, if I had chose to go to college instead of Form6, things will be so much different now, very much indeed.. Anyway, that's not the point, no point looking back and say so many "IF".. Weeks ago, IF I wanted to do BioMedicalScience I would have accepted NTU offers and go to Singapore where I long for.. But why do I always gotta go through the hard way to get what I want, some more for not exactly what I want.. Whenever I start thinking bout my study plan, I get very lost and many problems from every aspects comes in and makes things worse.. Like now, I can't even organize what I wanna type now.. I have got so much to whine about but dunno which first.. so you see my point all jumble up..

Just.... try to sort what I wanna tell out yourselve.. Can't stand the messiness?? Kindly click the [X] button on the upper right corner of the window... NONONO I'm not emo-ing, well just a little.. But really, why is it that everything that I want is rather hard for me to achieve?? Have I asked for too much?? I ain't just simply asking for it but I DID worked towards it.. No pain no gain??? There's give and take??? BULLSHIT!!! It all comes down to fate.. I really don't have much faith on fate.. Not only because I am a free thinker and I don't give a **** to what superstitious things, but I really feel that fate loves playing games with me.. I just gotta blame something else than myself!!

There's a saying goes.. You have a great purpose to serve; but you must first suffer, of failure, tired, and hunger... Crap... I just want an easy life... Crap again.. If I wanted easy life why have I chose Pharmacy as my path?? Face it, sub-consciously, I love challenges... Sorry I have no idea what have I wrote for the past hour... Just like to waste my time... And also yours :P Good night!

mk.pessimistic for the first time

Back-Episode3

2008-05-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

Alright, I confess!!!

I am so not in the mood to think of nice title for my blog... :P Face it people!!! Hiahia remember me saying Eric's post makes me emo??? Though I'm putting the blame on him, but somehow in some way his post really does makes me emo... Quit the crap, I'm here to finish of what I've done half way...

Yup, lets continue on my Redang trip.. On the second day, almost all of us overslept and missed the breakfast.. From my room, Yeelin is the only one went for breakfast, according to her, they serves Nasi Lemak and Porridge and the food is tasty... [Well the breakfast on the 3rd day; which are the same stuff served doesn't impress me much, nyek!]

Snukelling is the first thing we do in the morning... We were 'loaded' onto a boat which somewhat appears to me like a fishermanship, and I felt like a fish back then... This time we prepared our bread and I have less phobia feeding the fishes in the sea... Thanks to Ivan!!! He's my best snukelling company in the whole trip, maybe caused we both are more energetic, blah! But we did have fun trying to catch fish using the High5 bread plastic bag.. In fact we actually caught one!!! Ben and Eric have different problems in different trips such as mask and life jacket defects, leg cramps, etc etc and my girls are always no where to be seen... They normally got outta the sea and get tired rather soon..

After the trip we went to another shore to look for baby sharks, didn't get to see any but the shore is a big NO NO for swimmers... the water is SO shallow and there are way TOO MUCH of rocks and dried corals that will cut... Lilian becomes the biggest victim as she dunno get how many cuts on her feet... Then they so semangatly go and collect special looking corals.. Got 'Y' shape la, this la that la...

Around noon, we headed to the beach for beach volley ball... I did not apply sun block and i guess this is when my skin is least protected... Play till whole body sweat and sand and continue to the last snukelling after not even 5 minutes rest under the coconut trees.. Third trip is similar as other except for more aggressive fishes that I got stung every minute right after I jumped into the sea.. Waliao, they are just too hungry, but do I look edible to them??? SO i quickly swim away from the crowd of fishes, Tak Boleh la, very pain okay... Then now I'm back I found many small small non-bleeding wounds on my limbs... sigh~

Oh and one thing happen on our way back to our resort... Dino action go and sit at the edge of the boat then when we are almost near the beach, mischevious Ivan kicked him into the sea... Well Ben is the co-culprit la he suggested that.. So Dino swim his way to the beach and he lost his specs, few of them went searching for it but it's frame is damaged due to the huge impact when Dino hits the water.. So too bad, Dino gotta get a new specs, opps there's a price to pay...

Next, we went for Banana boat after tea break, the not-pro speedboat driver only manage to make us turn over ONCE!!! Ish, waste my money la... Then as we keep boo-ing at them, they end up jump down from the speedboat and MANUALLY turn over our banana boat... Lol, damn noob kay?! Aha, after that, we sneaked into Laguna Resort swimming pool and enjoy ourselves shamelessly... Ehem ehem, haha well at least this sneak to Laguna makes the trip more worthy as we enjoyed ourselve at the jacuzzi... Syok!!

After dinner we were chilling out at random places and then head to the Blue Sand Venture~ Haha Alot of patience and luck are needed to search for the 'legendary' blue sand.. lol simply say only la me, i dunno what legend behind it, but it's incredibly astonishing to dig and dig and suddenly find a tiny little rock shines like a star on the beach... Makes me think of the wonders of mother nature... It always reminds me of how insignificant I am in this world and how less I know about how the world goes around...

Night we went to room #55 for some games and liquor.. Aha, I gotta admit that I'm a mild alcoholic but i didn't purposely lose to drink okay?? Wakaka Later of the night I chat with Karen for hours and I insist to not sleep at all for the whole night... Emo abit with Karen and waited for sun rise in the morning.. I really like Redang and I don't wish to sleep my time away there.. I guess I did spent my time there to the fullest... The next morning I went for a walk and meet up with Ben, Roei, Keat and Yen along the beach... I just realized that I had actually walked the whole stretch of beach in Redang?!

Alright thats about all I did in Redang.. There are details that are too insignificant to be mentioned and inside stories that are too sensitive to be shared... Over all my mood swing during the trip is more complicated than I can comprehend myself... So long.. Redang..
Looking forward to the next trip.. Organizer?? Anyone??

mk.still sorting things out

Back-Episode2

2008-05-19T02:21:00.002+08:00

Ehem, bare with my blog title... But the title kinda suit my current status.. Prolly because I am just back from Pahang.. Again?! Yup, I went for the Yayasan Pahang scholarship interview in Kuantan yesterday morning.. Most unfortunately due to the successive travelling, I fell ill yesterday morning, nose blockage and headache for the whole day... I wasn't able to speak very clearly during the interview, sigh.. At the end of the day I puke after dinner, i'm a weak piece of lame chop.. Nothing much to tell bout the interview, just like any others.. All in all, mom had fun visiting old friends and sisters in her hometown..

In Kuantan, we went to the beach at Teluk Cempedak.. At the beach, I recall some moments at Teluk Cempedak 3 years back.. 3 years back I'm still in form4, young, innocent, naive and happy kinda best describe me back then.. Pretty much because there are not much worries back then, seriously missed old young days.. Glancing back makes me feel old... Being near the beach also reminds me of Redang, but of course the beach at Teluk Cempedak can never match Redang's one... Oh I so missed Redang, two nights there wasn't even enough...

Actually I was so in the mood to blog after i read Eric's blog.. But his post sounded kinda emo making me emo as well.. But after 2-3hours of blogging whatever flame of emo also distinguished d lo... so I'll update again tml cuz my flame of blogging really dying d... lol paiseh ya!! I'll come back to you about my second day in Redang..

Oyasumi~

mk

Back

2008-05-15T17:29:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm back to normal again...
You see, when you're away for 3days to an island where you only think of what to play next, what will we get for dinner, and actually get to throw everything behind your head, you get extremely down when you're back down to the earth of reality... Well I do.

So this is what happen, everyone have their own problems and sad stories behind their laughters... So do I... After 3 days of escapism to Redang, at the moment I step on Klang's land, everything rushes back to my mind replaying all the problems I'm facing in my current life... So much that I find it hard to digest... After a day or two, I am now starting to accept things in a different way, I guess the trip do take me to the moon and send me back to earth as a different person...

Oh yea, about the trip... Approximately 20 hours spent on transportation, 16 on bus and another 4 on boat... And both the bus and boat are extremely bouncy and I still feel the bouncing now... Nah just exaggerating, but then I do feel the bounce on Redang when I sat down and relax at the cafeteria (just a better word to call the canteen). The Redang Bay Resort is so low end that most of us feel like we were participating in school camps, wtf?! Yup.. How bad is the resort??? It's rated 2Stars online and to me it's way too overrated... How bad is that?? Use your imagination...

Alright, let me jot down what happened there on a daily basis, just a record to remember when I look back on this trip..

First Day.Sunday.11/05/2008
Departed form Klang the night before and reached Kuala Terengganu approximately 6am in the morning, took breakfast at their China town then headed to the jeti to wait for our "ferry".[I did not slept at all for the whole freaking night on the bouncy bus] -bla-bla-bla- and we reached Redang at dunno what time, 11am maybe, after a short briefing we checked into our rooms and had some rest and crazily applied sunblock for skin protection... I was suppose to sleep with Hui San, Pei Qi and Chun Rui but I decided to squeeze with my clique in room 51... Well, maybe I beh-cham or what but since I feel kinda isolated there It's better for me to stick to my friends and enjoy my trip~ Then we went down to the beach... The beach is really.really.really nice, with white soft sand and clear blue sea water... Ivan and I went swimming abit further for some exploration and I'm really glad that I can swim well enough to see many things... But since I'm so short and Ivan is tall so I sometimes get to tag on him and get some rest wahkaka... Then it's time for snukelling, nothing much, almost the same for every snukelling trip... I somehow thought that coral reefs are more colourful than green and brown... So a little bit disappointed on that... After snukeling we get our tea time, leisure time and dinner time, night is light and easy there... So my roommates and I went for Pool-ing and all of them are first timers, making me the one to act pro and teach them... Wakaka, then we headed to kareoke and normal la~ I just gotta show off my singing skill and luckily I still can sing well... Cause I have not slept for 30 hours d, should be half dead... Then later of the night I went chilling at the lounge with my bradas.ivan.eric.ben for chess and a cuppa cocktail... Hiahiahia, I was so lucky to win in chess that night... Hiahiahia, still happy now, Ivan you NOOB! :P and lastly we went to Laguna Beach Club or something for clubbing. This is my first time clubbing, and I didn't really enjoy it, still manage to shake something but there are many ugly.short.horny malay guys which are the big put off... Ugh.. And we head back to sleep... ZzzZzz

So this is how the first day goes... Will update bout the second day tomorrow... Oh ya, I will be leaving to Kuantan again tomorrow night as I have the Yayasan Pahang scholarship interview this saturday morning... I even went shopping for new blouse for the interview, and tonight I'm getting my hair dyed to dark dark brown again... So yea, wish me good luck in the interview as this is the only reply I got so far... pathetic 4.0 pointer I am...

signing off, have a great day peeps~

mk.tanned

Still too tired to blog...

2008-05-14T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry, I'm physically, psycologically and emotionally tired still... Ehem, sounds familiar?? No I'm not having my PMS... Just tired k?
Well just posting to indicate that I came back in a piece... Alive...
Bye

mk.moody

Gear Up!!

2008-05-10T19:01:00.002+08:00

Getting ready for the departure to Redang Island, one of the tourist attractions located at the east coast of Malaysia... Our bus depart at 10.30pm tonight, and I only started packing 1 hour ago... Normally before a trip I will prepare a checklist early before the trip and start packing few days ahead... Over the years I've changed and grown up to a more mature lady... No more the little girl that makes a huge fuss whenever there's an event or occasion coming up... Gahaha what a good statement to disguise my procrastinations..

I'm a lousy person when it comes to packing my luggage.. I'm afraid that I'll bring too many clothes causing my luggage to overweight and I'll end up the one suffering since I'll be the one carrying it; on the other hand, I'm afraid that I bring too little clothes to change and less variety to choose from... Hahaha, ain't all girls the same?? Tell me nothing but a YES...

Then I'll start whinning on how much I've spent directly and indirectly on this trip... Hahah won't be listing down whatever I bought for the trip, but they all dig my purse till empty is what I can say... Will still be spending over there at Redang.. Gosh, my whole month salary gone... This trip is mainly for fun and indulgence, so can't really complain much...

Well, just blogging before my trip like many bloggers will do, so won't be around till Tuesday night... Don't miss me kay?? Muaxx muaxx...

mk.sitting on the beachXOXO

林依晨 - 你MV ( 惡作劇2吻片尾曲 )

2008-05-09T17:25:00.003+08:00

Yup... Right after I finished 惡作劇之吻, well practically I still missed a few episodes which I'm lazy to go and watch back, I made mom buy 惡作劇2吻... Now I've finish both and looking forward to the third season.. And i'm so not satisfied with the season2 ending...

Recalling when I watched the first episode of 惡作劇之吻, I was seriously put off by the ultimate dumbness of the heroin aka Ariel.. Those who watched will know la... But still since the attraction-hero aka Joe is way too attractive I continue watching lo... Hahaha bought 惡作劇2吻 also just to watch the hero la... Super 'en tau'(drooling) + belly tall-188cm(erm,abit too tall) + genius-IQ200(damn overrated) + good kisser(yummy)... According to Susian, this kinda guy extinct d..
But seriously, this drama damn many kissing scene, salute the actors...
At last, I love this song...

風輕輕我聽見你聲音
你對著我叮嚀要注意自己的心情
雨輕輕我聽見你聲音
你拿著傘靠近為我遮著風擋著雨
一點點想哭泣一點點想著你
你的愛很珍惜我總依賴著你的記憶
你就像風在說話順著我方向
你就像海中的波浪堆著我成長
我明白你的回答溫柔的對話
愛情其實沒有辦法
不被感動吧我不說謊

mk.love kisses

PMS

2008-05-08T13:35:00.003+08:00

I am sure that all girls know what is PMS and for guys who are more conncern on girls or YOUR girl will know what it is. Now for those who don't, PMS is a three-letter initialism which I'm now using to stand for PreMenstrual Syndrome. Let me share some common info about PMS..

Since I have always interested in Health Science, I went and Google and learn more about this PMS thingy. PMS is collection of physical, psychological, and emotional symptoms related to a woman's menstrual cycle, sometimes caused by the hormonal disorder during menstuation when oestrogen level is too high and progesteron level is low... Most women experiences PMS 2 weeks prior to their menses, some stop after the menstual flow starts, while some may continue after the mentrual flow begun.

The intensity of symptom varies from individuals and let us see what are the common symptoms of PMS... I wasn't aware of a few of them and now only I know ohhhh, no wonder la..
Symptoms:
-Abdominal bloating (When my already big tummy turns gigantic, wtf)
-Abdominal cramp (most common; stomachache is a misconception)
-Constipation due to water retention (indeed true for me)
-Breast discomfort (Erm.. No comment)
-Aggression and Depression (Ahaha this is when people around us KENA!)
-Appetite changes and food craving (?? Food craving is forever for me)
-Insomnia (ehehe... ZzzzzZzzzz)
-Acne (Oh yea~)
-Headache and Fatigue (Not applicable to me though)
-Extreme tearfulness (When you wake up in the morning and found deposition of salt around your eyes, your period is near; my experience)

The risk factors that might boost the intensity of the symptoms is those common unhealthy practice of us such as:-
-Stress
-High Caffein intake**(stressed in many of my findings)
-Increasing Age
-Tobacco use (No Smoking please..)
-Family History
-Dietary Factors (Lack of vitamins like B6 and E; minerals like calsium and magnesuim)

There's some remedies to relieve PMS and the natural one will be leading a healthy lifestyle with reduction of caffein(coffee,tea), sugar, and sodium(salt) intake, and increase of fiber and adequate rest and sleep... Besides this, intake of supplements like calsium pills, magnesium, vitamin E and vitamin B complex will do some good.. Easy way out? Take MultiVitamin la...

The are a few guys that I know will buy chocolate for their girl during her PMS... Let me tell you something... Chocolates does not affect PMS intensity... Not worsen nor relieve... Furthermore, chocolate contains sugar that should be lessen during PMS... Not feeling so smart now? Since you've been buying chocolates for nothing... I guess your chocolates do make us happy~

That's all I can share about PMS... Adios!!

mk.pms-ing

Fruitful Day...

2008-05-08T00:47:00.004+08:00

I am very productive today!!! As planned, I have finally renewed my license~~ Weee people was telling me not to take off my [P] stickers in order to gain some sympathies during an accident... Nah~ Being a "hao lian sam pat po" I think i wanna peel off the ugly [P] stickers...

Oh ya.. In my yesterday post I mentioned about going to renew at Puspakom right?? Haha embarassing also I gotta be honest that till now I still don't know what Puspakom is for... Kakaka I stupidly queued up behind all the cars at the entrance of Puspakom (since mom told me that I have to renew my license there).. Hiahiahia, I don't even know that ACTUALLY~ JPJ, which is where i'm suppose to go, is just beside Puspakom... Luckily i grabbed Eric and Ivan along and asked Ivan to ask the guard house there... In short : I'm a failure... GAH!!! Then after a several mistakes I finally reached JPJ and get my license done in 15 minutes... Wa, I must say that our government offices have become so much more efficient nowadays... Like the other day I went for my EPF account registration and I got it done in 15 minutes... Coolness...

Oh ya, our initial plan today is to go Greenbox in the morning but early in the morning I received 2 last minute aeroplanes end up cancelling the plan... I was thinking of going for IronMan the movie instead but realizing I have promised brother to bring him to the movie this Saturday, we ended up at Klang Parade for Bowling and Pool... Fairly enough, while me being the loser in Bowling when Ivan and Eric crazily Strike and Spare for dunno how many times, I beat them in Pool!! Both of them!!! Wakakaka I sticked stamps on their eyes during the game, nolar I was lucky then... We forgot to take lunch which I only remember that 11pm just now...

After KP, I sent both of them back and get Jia Xin at Aeon and meet up with Chong Yen before we set off to the pre-departure briefing in KL... I'll skip the details in case I bore you guys to death... All in all, traffic congestions all the way to KL that I almost fell asleep in CY's car eventhough I talk alot, very general briefing which I now consider it as a waste of time, very long and tired day and I have not eaten anything except for ONE sausage in the morning until 11pm... Gosh, till now i still can't understand how did i survive that, since I'm a super 'tham jia po'...
Thanks alot to Chong Yen for fetching us there and today I really gotta thank my dad because he was in Jalan Imbi since 5.30pm and he got himself lost, try-and-error-ing the way to the hotel, so by the time we reach Jalan Imbi we were fortunate to have tips from dad bout where to and not to turn and eventually save alot of time to find the place... Thank you Daddy, dad end up reach there later than we do and he practically didn't listen to anything... After the thing I followed dad back and we both went cari makan in Sentosa at 11pm... Both starving..

Today's post is rather loooooooooong, since it's a long and productive day for me... And one thing happy!!! Seng Qian SMSed me today!!! Actually only to inform me that the bag I ordered in PA has arrived and I can go and collect it anytime, but I am darn happy since this is the first time he sms me first!! Wahahha, for whatever reason... Anyway, just an excuse to call today a Happy Day, it's really not a big deal...

Cheerio~

mk.optimist

Short Report...

2008-05-06T22:38:00.006+08:00

Went swimming today, like finally~
With Kylye, Ivan and Eric... Dididada yadiyada we end up late there for 30 minutes to our initial plan... Thanks to Mr. Ivan!!!! So we swim and Eric practically soak himself in the swimming pool which is somewhat suspected to be over-chlorinated... But it's kinda inconvenient to travel all the way there just to swim... Gotta find another place... Topic ends on swimming..

Tomorrow morning I die die [direct Hokkien translation] also have to renew my Probational driving license in the morning at Puspakom... I am not only a kiasu person but also a kia-si one... Driving illegally makes me nervous... Kakaka, craps...

Wanna write more bout my planned ahead outings but I'm afraid that later got stalkers reading my blog come and stalk at me... Blah, just kidding, merely giving excuses for my indolences of blogging...

NTU pre-departure briefing on tomorrow night, and I haven't even make up my mind... Headache...

Redang this weekend!!!

Tada~

mk

Lost...

2008-05-02T12:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night when I was still happily joying over my admission to NTU, I checked my NUS application and guess what I get???

You have been offered Science in the academic year of 2008-09.

Gosh, life really do has it's ups and downs... Now what should I do???? What should I do???? I totally freaked out yesterday night thinking what the hell am I going to do next... And the more I checked, the more I feel like wanna bang wall... Appeal is only open in June. All this while I've been wanting to do Pharmacy in NUS and now seems like my dream crashed once again... Yet, NUS Science offers 15 majors which one of it is Food Science, i think...
p/s: Food science and Nutrition I likey!!!
On the other hand, for the Double Degree on Biomedical Science and Chinese Medicine offered by NTU, it is a 5 years course which the 4th and 5th year i'll be studying and interning at Beijing University Of Chinese Medicine (BUCM), not to be mistaken as the top university, Peking University... Which I'm rather worried bout the career prospects of this course... Plus I can't really get anything about BUCM on the web which makes me have less faith in the university... Then I checked alot bout hospitals providing CM, oh my I'm so lost again... Though CM sounds very interesting, but but but there's mamy circumstances that makes me not so keen on taking it...

I just wanna struggle for a few years more and live an easy life after that... Which, pharmacy seems to be one good option for that... If I were to stick with Pharmacy, local U seems to be my only option for the time being... Great!! Local U ain't that bad after all, I have more confidence to achieve my First Class Honour locally... Seriously... What should I do??

Option #1:
To take Science (4years), perhaps major in Food Science or Chemistry in NUS?? Come out as a scientist and endless lab-work?? Or work in a food company?? Or become a chemist??? Perhaps sales later...

Option #2:
Take Double Degree in BMS and CM for 3years in NTU and 2 years in BUCM?? Come out as a SenSei or Researcher in "East meets West" medications?? Have my own Herbal Shop perhaps?? Own a Acupuncture and Moxibustion Centre?? Or teach old people Qigong and Taiji???

Option #3:
Take Pharmacy, 4 years locally... come out serve the country for dunno how many years and become a community pharmacist and eventually own a pharmacy???

Option #4:
Take any option of above and get a perfect boyfriend and get marry become housewife... ***Bingo!!!***

Alright, just ignore option #4...
Advice, anyone????

mk

Tagged by Sanly

2008-05-02T00:48:00.004+08:00

Instructions : Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
26/27. I've been planning on this for years... I wanna give birth before 30~ First step is to get a boyfriend... Then trick him to marry me muahahhaa... Oops sounds evil~

2.If you have the chance what would you probably say to your beloved one?
"I LOVE YOU" We must express our love to the loved ones every now and then... Say it before it's too late, anytime can be too late!!!

3.What do you fear most in cooking/baking?
I might carelessly burnt myself... T.T ouch!!

4.When you pangsai which position do you prefer, sit or squat?
Sit.

5. Where is the place that you want to go to the most?
Too many to be mentioned here, I'm one greedy traveler...

6. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To grow 3 inches taller... Bahahhaa crappy dream...

7. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Absolutely NO, I'm a shopaholic...

8. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Everything... I've got too much to lose... Lucky me~

9. What would you do if you won $1 million?
Get myself a BMW 5series... And keep the rest for car maintenance and insurance...

10.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
Certainly, absolutely, definitely, 100% yes... I don't listen to girls can't be aggresive bullshit...

11. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
>> Straight forward
>> Friendly
>> Out-going

12.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Oh my, this is a tough one... If I were to list out the requirement, it will take forever~ Cut it short to it's the feeling that matters...

13.Which type of person do you hate the the most?
Seriously... I hate dumb people... Mean but true...

14.What do you think about sex?
No Comment.

15.What do you think is the most important thing in life?
Be Happy... To achieve something out of it and not just plain indulgence...

16.If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Self-centred.

17.What is your biggest fear?? (My Question)
Lonesome I guess, I'm a people person, I love being around people...

18.If you are to die one day, who would you wish to spend your last day with?
My family, buddies and him(if he ever exist)

19.What is/are your trademarks?
Used to be Chili Padi, cuz I super fierce in primary school...
Kecik/Kecil... Needless to elaborate more, merely cuz I'm petite.

20.If you were given a chance to change a thing in a guy(if you were a girl) and in a girl(if you were a guy), what would you want them to change most?
Nothing. Each and everyone of us are created to serve a unique purpose and anything in a guy is the thing that makes them special...

I tag ...
SuSian
YinYin
DarthXintor
LameMary
ChyeSoon

Laaaa, I cant tag 8 person la... zzzz
Do it if you wish to...

mk.tagged

B for Blog

2008-04-28T21:54:00.007+08:00

Hey people... I'm back after nearly a week of not updating... Where do I start???
Hmmm.. Went Sunway Lagoon last Satuday, after the Prize Giving Ceremony in school... No money one... How poor is ACS?? Their money all used up to repair they ever-damaged toilets... Some more thought I can cover my expenditure to Lagoon with the prize money... As only JX and I going for the ceremony, Lilian and troop went for the Walkathon in the morning... We lost contacts and basically played seperately that day, JX and I couple for the day.. To put it in a nut shell, we didn't really enjoy...

ACS STPM scholars...

Xin and me - Couple of the day~

-the end-

I believed I have mentioned this guy Seng Qian who works in PA Bukit Raja... Guess what?? I got his number and SMSed him last night... Wahahha damn aggresive me can?? Just bare with me, it's my last day working I should somehow make a move and not regret in the future, no? Oh and I'm so going to miss the time working at PDI, my collegues are all friendly and funny people... Not to mention how lame they can be... During the short period of my working time, I have top the list of personal sales for a couple of time... Wahaha and I broke my personal sales target of RM700 today... Happy~ The only drawback of this job will be it physically affects me ALOT!!! Besides standing for long hours that nearly break my legs, I ate like a dinosaur during break time... WHICH, contributes to my gain in weight... Dammit, people trying so hard to lose my fats but now I gain more instead... puik!

And here we come to the highlights of the night!!!!
This morning, as usual, the first thing I do after I wake up is to turn on my laptop and check my mails, my eyes sparkled for a second when I see an email with the Subject : Application Status... Then I closed my eyes and pray very hard after I clicked to open the mail... And....

Qiang qiang qiang qiang!!!!!

Dear Heng Sue Chin,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected for admission to the Nanyang Technological University, Singapore in Academic Year 2008-09 for a course of study in Biomedical Sciences & Chinese Medicine (Double Degree). Your selection from a pool of highly qualified applicants reflects a recognition of your academic achievement and our belief that you will thrive as a student of the NTU community. [bla-bla-bla]
We extend to you our congratulations and look forward to your participation in a challenging and stimulating academic future at NTU.

Say I'm a show-off whatever I don't care~ I know some of you will be happy for me... Wahahaa, just have to share this happiness here... So ya, I'm unemployed again and will be enjoying my holiday again... Feel free to ask me out~~

Adios!

mk.happy!

Star by Kim Ah Joong

2008-04-24T21:00:00.003+08:00

Never stop loving this song ever since I heard it... Can anyone get me this song in MP3 format pleasssseeee... Thank you thank you... Enjoy~

Lyrics...
Byul lyrics

(200 Pound Beauty OST)

Param-kyori cha-ngeu-rheun-teul-go
Nae kiman-han cha-gun naye bang wi-ro
Arum-taun-ke pyul-bit-durun
Kaduk chae-wo-chuneyo
Sel-su-obshi manhunt pyul-tu-reun
Ji-chyo-in-nun na-reul oru-man-chimyo
Nae mam-soge katok tamun
Nun-mul tak-ka shu-neyo

Man-hyi apa-ha-ji-ma
Nal kkung anun-chae
Tado-kyojumyo chal-jara
Wero-hae ju-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyol-deul-cho-rom yongwonhi

Kkumul kku-deut taka-uneyo
Yu-nu-nhi-do balkun naye byol hana
Nunbu-shi-mi panjja-gimyo
Okkae-wiro naer-yo-wa

Jakku sulpo-hajima
Son kkong chabun-chae
Nal manchyo-jumyo
Tta-seu-hi nal kamssa-shu-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-seum-soge gan-chikhal-kke-yo
Tunune sunoh-ajin
Cho pyol-deul-chorom ooohhhh

Na onul-manun anu-royu
Nun-muri kadokchowado
Chogi cho byol-deul-chorom
Na u-seul-lae-yo ooohhhh
Haeng-bokhaet-don giok-modu
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyon-deul-cho-rom
Yongwonhi

Translation of Youme’s version:

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

Omg with the translation, I'm even more in love with the song!!!
tata

mk.staring upon the stars... think of you... just you~

Longing for...

2008-04-24T01:02:00.006+08:00

My aunt recommended mom a Taiwanese drama - 恶作剧之吻, It Started With A Kiss, and I'm currently into it... I know i know, this drama is like oh-my-so-freaking-long-ago thing and I'm only watching it now... Anyway, disregarding how handsome the hero in the drama is, I'm soooo into him because he's super smart... Why drama story line never happens in my life?? Well, I only get to watch 3 episodes and mom stopped the dvd and chased everyone to sleep... Since I can't sleep yet, I just wanna scream how envious am I towards the heroin!!! Lol, that naive (dumb) girl just so happen to have the best luck in the world as the super-high-IQ-top-student who is also her crush for years happens to be the son of her father's best friend... She, along with her father moved to stay with the family after their new house collapsed due to a mild earthquake.. then yadi yada bla bla bla and happy ending... Well I haven't reach the ending though...

The main point is....!!! I've always wanted to study together with the one I like, and he's the smart one and I'm the dumb one, he can teach me lots and lots of things and I 'bodo'ly admire at his intelligence and coolness... Yes, that's like one of my biggest fantasy besides marrying a rich guy and live happily ever after and etc etc... I always find that romantic!!!

Don't come and tell me :

"What?!? Studying is romantic?!? You knocked your head or what?!?"

Haha, I just can't help to feel that smart guys are sexy... Haha, well he still gotta have some look and not just plain brain and neurons... ugh ugh~ Ahaha, but I never have luck and fate with smart guys, no no... So my fantasy will remain as fantasy... Hopefully I'll get to meet one in my university life... 4 years left to materialize my dreams... Lol, praying hard for a hot cute nerd which is smarter than me... Namo namo... Haha, dramas make me dream alot more than I already did... Full time dreamer I am...

Namo... (x infinity)
tata

mk.final fantasy?

Short peace of mind...

2008-04-23T00:25:00.005+08:00

I am proud to announce that my blog actually have a couple of loyal readers... Make it a dozen, can I? So I'll try to update as often as possible so that you do not come here and have to bare to look at the stinking-not fresh-rotting-with spider web-old post for days... I'll TRY~

Now... If life is like a roller coaster ride, I have no idea whether I'm up or down... So confused, that I have no idea whether I'm flying or falling... I have been over-spending [still not stopping], over-worked my ass off at PDI, overwhelmed when a message sent, and overdoomed when a message received...

Everytime, I said EVERYTIME!!! When I finally made a real hard decision, something just have to jump out off nowhere and ruin my plan... Eventually I break the vow I've made to myself, and break the promise I've made to my friends... Can we actually regret over our regrets? Ignore me, me.emo.mo.mo.mo....

Today I had lunch alone at Pizza Hut Bukit Raja (BR)... I just have to announce when I do things alone... wanna dramatically show some lonesome here~ Neeway, unlike those other times that I used to take lunch alone when I work at KP, where I felt awfully miserable myself, I felt peace instead today... For some reason, my mind was so messy that everything becomes so abstract and it stops thinking... I actually planned to used my lunch time to sort out something, but I can't seems to get anything out from my mind to be sort out, I mindlessly, cut and chew my pizzas peacefully...

UNTIL!!!

A bunch of noisy-loud speaking-kids [teenagers-looks 15] comes in and spoiled my peace of mind... So there goes my peace... I so miss that peace now...

My work isn't so bad as I have some wacky collegues... And today we were cracking lame jokes to kill time, such as how to do magic without using any tools and et cetera... Laugh my lungs out as the actions are super lame... Well, some of you might not enjoy it, but I totally buy it!! Hilarious!! LOL then I got home and share with my family, they too laugh hard and 'sweat' at the same time...

Just to share my happy day~ With some emo moments..
Overall, Great!
Muaxx

mk

Her Ordinary Days...

2008-04-19T10:20:00.005+08:00

Blogging before work...
When I have got nothing to do and rot at home everyday, I complain...
When I got a job and work for 8 hours a day, I also complain...
When I get to do shopping and spend, I still complain...
When I happily used up my money, I complain again...
Conclusion : I'm an opposition... I complained on everything!!!

_____~Work em' up~_____
Working noon shift today, which means till 10.30pm, which further means dad might over-paranoidly wait for me to get home and eventually nag at me... What job to find next?? Office definitely won't want me for 1 freaking month... I need a part time job, short hours part time in the morning... So anyone, pls let me know if you got any good recommendation for part timers...

_____~Crapping A Business~_____
And yes!! Am going to Lagoon next saturday with sistas~~ Aiks! gonna get tanned so soon and can't show off my fair skin in Redang d... ish ish, kidding I where got what fair skin wor... So I'll try to update my outings... Though I'm super uber lazy on updating outings... By the way, watched "The Forbidden Kingdom" with Eric and Ben at Aeon yesterday... The movie was great but I find something ridiculously hilarious as imagine watching the Jade Emperor, Sun Go Kong and yadi yada speaking English wtf! Still Liu Yi Fei the Chinese actress that plays Golden Sparrow is undeniably beautiful... Jealous-nyer~~

_____~I'm way too Beautifoooool Girl~_____
It's an instinct for mortal human like us to love beautiful things... People pay thousands to travel around the world to see beautiful sceneries, some pay millions to possess beautiful stones>>diamonds maybe... And most of us, will be attracted to beautiful people around us, nonetheless... So am I... As I'm longing to visit Redang the-everyone-say-is-beautiful-beach, and insanely peeped on the handsome guy, i think his name is Seng Qian or something, that works at PA Bkt Raja... Gahaha, peep only haven't stalk him yet, aiks I'm a potential stalker d jeezzz...

_____~Wish of The Day~_____
It's JX big day today...
So Happy Birthday Jia Xin!!!!
muamuamua (-3-)
No celebration is planned,
so I guess we'll make that up next Saturday at Lagoon k??

thats all, cheerio~

mk

Buzzzzzei

2008-04-18T19:48:00.005+08:00

Finally Missy Busy here found some time to blog, but the truth is my junkie lappy keep showing me patterns and auto shut down everytime I switched it on, so I now get to blog 5 minutes after I reformatted this laptop... By the way, good news ahead is that I'm getting a new laptop tomorrow!!! A 12.1" Acer Aspire 2920 , hiahiahia... Hope nothing comes up and break my dreams... This morning went to IDP Subang to collect my IELTS results, got an overall band of 7.5... Not bad, but did quite badly in Writng and Speaking... So not happy...

_____~Confession Booth~_____

I have been spending a bomb lately, I'm so sorry for not spending wisely... Firstly, Redang trip costs me hundreds, and I abruptly decided to get myself a pair of sunnies, an economical one yet still costly for me from Morgan@ Focus Point Fair @ JJ Bukit Raja... But now abit regret didn't asked for more discount... T.T Gahaha, I'm having difficulties controling my expenditure, seriously...

Conclusion : I POKAI D!!!!

_____~Sia Sui Moments~_____

One lady should never reveal her sia sui moment, but then... I guess you all know I got a part time job at PDI Bukit Raja... Dad waited for me to get home for a couple of nights till 11pm and he emo on me asking me to quit the job, at most till the end of april... I was like.... Okay?! Haha, one secret that's not a secret anymore to be shared>>> I a.k.a tai siu je also cannot tahan the job that stand 8 hours a day... So I told my supervisor I'm quiting.. So awkward now... My collegues are giving me those one-kind-look... wtf!

_____~Emomomomoment~_____

Look^^ Above is my 4 year old wallet... I got it in a present exchange during Christmas 2004 from my so-called ex-pet-brother... Then around 2006, I got myself a red Milk Teddy purse [love purses from MT] and during this year's Ching Ming prayer, I let my cousin kept my purse in her bag and careless us let her bring it all the way home to Endau, Pahang.. So I "lost" my purse and was using the old one for a few days... Thinking of getting a new CarloRino one but can't spend that much on only a purse, I'd rather have that amount of money in my purse you see.. Haha, so I got myself a new MT again... Chosen by Eric [hey eric, here's your ke le fe name appearing again].. As below vv...

Might you be wondering what does my emomomomoment gotta do with my new and old purse??? Haha, nothing much, just that when I look at my new and old purse in the afternoon, something flashes though my mind... When I lost my purse, I can just get a new one and carry on my life, but when I've lost my love, why can't i just get a new one and move on???
emomomomomomomomomo (x infinity)

tata

So much to say...

2008-04-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

My laptop has been behaving like a piece of junk... Therefore, I have been lazy to blog as well... Anyway, I was so hoping to get a new laptop today but unfortunately the model that I desired is currently out of stock... Deng!! Really unlucky like sh*t or what... Omgggggggggod... Super cannot tahan my sh*tty luck... Enough complain for now and hopefully I'll lay my eye on a new model asap... zzzz

_____~Smiling Face @ News.com~_____
I've got a part time job at P.D.I @ Jaya Jusco, Bukit Raja and will start working tomorrow!! Yay!! Which means no more unforgivable time wastage and money spendings... Not exactly no more, but definitely lessen a lot... Which also means less online moment > less blogging...

_____~Thought Of The Day after Yesterday~____
Yesterday night I watched this Korean movie titled "A Moment To Remember"... The story is about a girl who is diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease at the age of 27 and she started to forget her loved ones-> family and husband... It's a sad story though, made me cried a river and drown the whole world~ And again, it also makes me realized that the chances of me getting Alzheimer's is rather high [choi choi touch wood, spit saliva and say again], since the disease is sometimes caused by inheritance... My grandmother suffered Alzheimer as well... Relating my thoughts to my current status, I'm considered a girl with somewhat good memory power and sometimes I just want to forget about what happen in my past relationship to get it over with, but yesterday after watching that show I realized that I really.seriously.definitely.absolutely.certainly.actually don't want to forget that episode of my life, which is why I'm still not getting over it... What is love without memories?? Love don't just come in a snap of the fingers, it is built with foundations of memories... Some are sad, yet beautiful... Then I realized that I blog to keep track of these memories... That's why my blog is in a diary form. When I delete my Xanga blog when I was irrationally emo-ing over the break up, I actually tried to delete my memories but some are so strong that they just won't get off my mind... Although now I'm super regret over my act of deleting the blog, but there's no point crying over spilled milk... Oh my thought have been long, but not to be surprised, I'm a lengthy thinker, and tend to think too much...

_____~Whisper In The Ears~_____
I miss you~
miss you~
miss you~~
I miss you like crazy~
Even more than....
[what's this song name???]

_____~Wish Of The Day~_____
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIR HONG AND BEE KIAN!!!
May your wishes come true...
*hugs and blessings*

_____~Mourn~_____
Mom's boss passed away this morning, due to complications after a "by pass" operation, rest in peace Uncle Dato...

mk

2008-04-09T22:43:00.003+08:00

I was craving on going to Redang Island for years since after SPM in 2005. I'm finally going to Redang next month and at this moment, I'm not really looking forward to the trip... What's gotten in to me?? By the way, I just watched "What Women Wants" on 8tv, the finalist spent their time at Tioman Island... Gosh apparently snorkeling requires a certain level of stamina.. Haha in order to enjoy myself kau kau at Redang, I guess I should really work harder on my swimming... Training starting next week!!! Eh heh, why not tomorrow?? Well, under some circumstances, cannot la... Blueh...

I wanna go Tioman also la... Who else planning any trip???
Ish Gotta save money for my W580i...

Bored already, tata..

mk

THINK!!!

2008-04-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

The eyes of mine are not feeling so well today,
was kinda blur when I watched movie
"The Three Kingdom"
in the afternoon with lilian dear,
still fortunate that I'm not seeing
ddoouubbllee vviissiioonn...
Maybe because they were flooded last night...
Thanks to Edwin,
my getting better life sort of wretched again...
Very confused at this moment,
very tired since I slept at 4am again...
Keep asked me to think...
and think...
and think...
as if I never did...
So now am thinking again,
with my somewhat exhausted mind...
Going to sleep, after a cuppa I guess...
Good night, world...

mk.dead

Just for you~

2008-04-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to my beloved bro, or I actually prefer --> sis~
Eric~
Haha.. Well, he was complaining that I always blog so much some more keep ask him to read but never blog about him, then when I told him I did mentioned about him, he some more complained he's name is too KE LE FEH~~ Lol, super hao lian k??
Okok since I wanna blog about him it's better for me to talk good things bout him, later he say wanna give me a punch on the face AGAIN.. Well he is super duper uber slim or I should say skinny for a guy.. 52kg only, around 174cm tall... Imagine his wrists are thinner and smaller than mine!!! OMG~ Gahaha, not to forget his face is also smaller than mine T.T , with a palm almost my size... gosh...
Well physically, his considered rather attractive (ehem, don't fly k?), I have always feel that he resembles Orlando Bloom, or more precisely, Legolas in the Lord Of The Ring movies... Aha!! Don't correct me even if you don't agree, that's my perspective okay??? yet again, i cant help but to say that he's tooooo skinny, eat more babe!
Personality wise, to my knowledge, I see him as a rather sensitive guy, mild temper but he has his moment, funny at times and lame as well... He is a great person to talk to, and a good listener too. We just got close for a couple of months and I definitely have endless topics to talk to him. Recalling the Wed when we went to Sg. Wang for Ben's final, both of us basically sat at McDonalds and chat for 2 hours while waiting for Ben to take his theory... We shared a regular coke and refilled for dunno how many times..
Also, well I don't know whether I should talk about this, scare he'll kill me later, hope he won't, he's a romantic person... Heard about the way he used to treat his girl (now ex), was touched, well a little... But then!!!! He's also a very weird person, always have a lot of patterns, I find sometimes he love to stay in his comfort zone too much... He doesn't like to mix with a lot of people that some he find eerm, not so likable? Maybe that's being real and not hypocritical, I don't know but don't judge a person if you do not know him/her well k?
And we have been mistaken as a couple when we went outings together, by a girl Emma from a crystal shop and by Willy [the person that tries to teach me during ice skating].. LOL I always kena bully kao kao by this fella la, ish ish teruk... alright, I got this feeling that he'll whack me when he saw this post...

[message to eric : woi! you asked for this ar, so next time be careful of what you wish for! blueh!!]

mk.aka.sista

EMBARRASSMENTS~

2008-04-04T19:04:00.002+08:00

I HATE my lappy!!! *emo emo*
I just reformatted my laptop today...
Still functioning like a piece of crap... So slow, so annoying!!
Can't wait to get my new laptop of my own...

Well speaking of embarrassment, I guess everyone has their awkward moments, for me I have plenty of them. For instance, when I fall in the ice-skating ring I'll scream in a super high pitch, loudest as well and eventually find my voice echoing throughout the shopping mall... Crap, hyper but true... well I don't mean it but it's kinda instant reflects of mine... I tend to scream very easily, when i was startled by Ivan who bumped out of no where and knocked on my car window in front of Andalas McD, when I watch horrors and thrillers, and even when a lizard jumped down and 'pop' it landed hard on the floor from the ceiling... Conclusion: I'm a born screamer, wtf...

This week have been rather tiring, had a compact 12 hours workshop at IDP Subang for IELTS. Jeez got lost while looking for a parking lot.. I took a turn and no idea where it leads me, end up I was 20 minutes late for the first lesson... zzzz Second day was okay, but yesterday!!! I had Speaking Test at 1pm so I'm supposed to show up 1hour in prior. I was early but I circled around there for half an hour and still no parking... Gave up and I parked in the Asian Cafe car park... I can't help but to feel that I was conned!!! Well, sort of half willingly~ Freaking parking rm2 per hour.. For the first time it cost me rm14 just for parking, still can't get over it... T.T
Asian Cafe I hate too... XC

Btw, after a series of try and error, I finally get to sign in and blog! gaga XP

mk

_____Wish Of the Day_____
Happy 20th Birthday Uncle Edwin!!!
erm it's belated abit, but the heart counts lo~~

Life's like this~

2008-03-31T17:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes my dad tells us stories about life and people...
Here is a good one...

After God created lives on earth, He decided to give all living things a role to play in the new world... God then called upon the Bull, the Dog, the Monkey, and Human...

He first talked to the Bull...
God : Bull, you have to work very hard and serve others for your entire life and you are given grass as you food. I shall let you live for 50 years.
Bull : What??! I have to work my ass off and what i get is grass?? 20 years is enough for me to live, You can keep the 30 years, my Lord.

Then he turn to the Dog, and say...
God : Dog, you will sit and guard in front of your house and bark to whoever passing by your house and you have leftovers and bones for food. I shall let you live for 30 years.
Dog : What??! I have to bark like a lunatic and all I get is leftovers and bones?? No thanks, just let me live for 10 years and You can keep the 20 years, my Lord.

Next, he go on to Monkey...
God : Monkey, you shall make funny faces and entertain people for your life and have bananas as food. I shall let you leave for 20 years.
Monkey : Huh??! I gotta make clowns' face and entertain people for my entire life and all I get is bananas?? Nah, I would like to have only 10 years to live and you can keep the remaining 10 years, my Lord.

and lastly, He come to Human, and says...
God : Human, my dearest creation, for you I'll let you play and have fun, eat the tastiest food, drink the finest beverage. You do not need to work but to enjoy and indulge in your wonderful life... I shall let you live for 20 years.
Human : Oh dear God, I have such wonderful life and I only get to live for 20 years?? 20 years are too short for me to enjoy. Don't you have the extra 30 years from the Bull, 20 years from the Dog and 10 years from the Monkey?? Can You All Mighty grant me those extra years to live??
God : Those years from others?? Hmmm... Are you sure you want those extra years???
Human : Certainly!!! my Lord...
God : Alright then, I shall grant you extra 60 years to live...

That's why we humans get to play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives, then have to work like a bull for the next 30 years, and when we reach the age of 50 and we're retired, we'll sit in front our house and loves to bark at people (grumpy old man which has nothing better to do) for 20 years, and around the age of 70, when we have our grandchildren, we will make funny funny faces to entertain them...

-the end-

Hope you enjoy reading this story, cuz I find it rather interesting...

mk.lame storyteller

Exhausting Day~

2008-03-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

Ching Ming prayer day...
Stuck in the car for 6 hours...
Took 5 hours to reach Fairy Park at Meru...
and 1 hour to reach home...
Freaking traffic congestion...
Too many cars in Klang...
Gosh!!! Exhausted.... zzzz

-the end-

mk

我的心真的受伤了-张学友

2008-03-29T21:08:00.004+08:00

It's been 3 months I live without you, obviously I'm still alive... Which means I can live without you, just a little miserable... Glad to hear that you moved on, living your usual happy-go-lucky way, yet upset to see you being able to forget right after everything... I heard it's a norm for guys... How sarcastically ironic... Such a disgrace to have to live like this, holding on to something that no longer exists, living in dreams of memories, feeding on words that no longer sound...
What goes around comes around, maybe it's the mistakes I've done that makes me deserve this, drowned in my wonders, unaware of the calmness before a catastrophe, until the alarm rang and nothing can be done... There's gain and loss you said, that sacrifices have to be made for some decisions. Then there's more gain than loss you said, but how do you measure which I treasure more??
Silly things I've done in the past 3 months, dramatically portrait lonesome, idiotically numb myself with alcohol, cried in the middle of the night like some weaklings, made vows and promises like a loser, and etc etc etc... Hate being a weakling, hate being a loser, hate myself!! *~cuz I hate how much I love you boy~* oops, crap the Rihanna... Not getting over you in the near future, but don't worry I still love myself more enough to not let you ruin my life... Muaxx

mk.love.me

Science vs God

2008-03-27T12:32:00.001+08:00

The other day Sanly sent me this email about an argument and I can't help but to share it here...

Science vs. God

"Let me explain the problem science
has with Jesus Christ." The
atheist professor of philosophy pauses
before his class and then asks one of
his new students to stand.

"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"

"Yes sir," the student says.

"So you believe in God?"

"Absolutely."

"Is God good?"

"Sure! God's good."

"Is God all-powerful? Can God do
anything?"

"Yes."

"Are you good or evil?"

"The Bible says I'm evil."

The professor grins knowingly. "Aha!
The Bible!" He considers for a moment.

"Here's one for you. Let's say there's
a sick person over here and you can
cure him. You can do it. Would you
help him. Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good...!"

"I wouldn't say that."

"But why not say that? You'd help a
sick and maimed person if you could.
Most
of us would if we could. But God
doesn't."

The student does not answer, so the
professor continues. "He doesn't,does
he?
My brother was a Christian who died of
cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus
to heal him. How is this Jesus good?
Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"

The student remains silent.

"No, you can't, can you?" the
professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a
glass on his desk to give the student
time to relax.

"Let's start again, young fella Is God
good?"

"Er...yes," the student says.

"Is Satan good?"

The student doesn't hesitate on this
one. "No."

"Then where does Satan come from?"

The student : "From...God..."

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't
he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this
world?"

"Yes, sir."

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God
did make everything, correct?"

"Yes."

"So who created evil?" The professor
continued, "If God created everything,
then God created evil, since evil
exists, and according to the principle
that
our works define who we are, then God
is evil."

Without allowing the student to
answer, the professor continues: "Is
there
sickness, Immorality, Hatred,
Ugliness, All these terrible things,do
they
exist in this world?"

The student: "Yes."

"So who created them?"

The student does not answer again, so
the professor repeats his question.
"Who created them? There is still no
answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks
away to pace in front of the
classroom. The class is mesmerized.

"Tell me," he continues onto another
student. "Do you believe in Jesus
Christ, son?"

The student's voice is
confident: "Yes, professor, I do."

The old man stops pacing. "Science
says you have five senses you use to
identify and observe the world around
you.

Have you ever seen Jesus?"

"No sir. I've never seen Him"

"Then tell us if you've ever heard
your Jesus?"

"No, sir, I have not."

"Have you ever actually felt your
Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your
Jesus?
Have you ever had any sensory
perception of Jesus Christ, or God for
that
matter?"

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"Yet you still believe in him?"

"Yes."

"According to the rules of empirical,
testable, demonstrable
protocol,science
says your God doesn't exist.

What do you say to that, son?"

"Nothing," the student replies. "I
only have my faith."

"Yes, faith," the professor
repeats. "And that is the problem
science has
with God. There is no evidence, only
faith."

The student stands quietly for a
moment, before asking a question of his
own.

"Professor, is there such thing as
heat?"

"Yes," the professor replies. "There's
heat."

"And is there such a thing as cold?"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No sir, there isn't."

The professor turns to face the
student, obviously interested. The
room
suddenly becomes very quiet. The
student begins to explain.

"You can have lots of heat, even more
heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited
heat, white heat, a little heat or no
heat, but we don't have anything
called
'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees
below zero, which is no heat, but we
can't go any further after that. There
is no such thing as cold; otherwise we
would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees.

Every body or object is susceptible to
study when it has or transmits energy,
and heat is what makes a body or
matter have or transmit energy.
Absolute
zero (-458 F) is the total absence of
heat. You see, sir, cold is only a
word
we use to describe the
absence of heat. We cannot measure
cold. Heat we can measure in thermal
units
because heat is energy. Cold is not
the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it."

Silence across the room. A pen drops
somewhere in the classroom, sounding
like a hammer.

"What about darkness, professor. Is
there such a thing as darkness?"

"Yes," the professor replies without
hesitation. "What is night if it isn't
darkness?"

"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is
not something; it is the absence of
something. You can have low light,
normal light, bright light, flashing
light, but if you have no light
constantly you have nothing and it's
called
darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning
we use to define the word. In reality,
darkness isn't. If it were, you would
be able to make darkness darker,
wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the
student in front of him. This will be
a
good semester. "So what point are you
making, young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is, your
philosophical premise is flawed to
start
with, and so your conclusion must also
be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his
surprise this time. "Flawed? Can
you explain how?"

"You are working on the premise of
duality," the student explains. "You
argue that there is life and then
there's death; a good God and a bad
God.
You are viewing the concept of God as
something finite, something we can
measure.

Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and
magnetism,
but has never seen, much less fully
understood either one. To view death
as
the opposite of life is to be ignorant
of the fact that death cannot exist as
a substantive thing. Death is not the
opposite of life, just the absence of
it."

"Now tell me, professor. Do you teach
your students that they evolved from a
monkey?"
"If you are referring to the natural
evolutionary process, young man, yes,
of
course I do"
"Have you ever observed evolution with
your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his
head, still smiling, as he realizes
where
the argument is going. A very good
semester, indeed.

"Since no one has ever observed the
process of evolution at work and cannot
even prove that this process is an on-
going endeavor, are you not teaching
your opinion, sir? Are you now not a
scientist, but a preacher?"

The class is in uproar. The student
remains silent until the commotion has
subsided.
"To continue the point you were making
earlier to the other student, let me
give you an example of what I mean."

The student looks around the room. "Is
there anyone in the class who has ever
seen the professor's brain?" The class
breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever
heard the professor's brain, felt
the professor's brain, touched or
smelled the professor's brain? No one
appears to have done so. So, according
to the established rules of empirical,
stable, demonstrable protocol, science
says that you have no brain, with all
due respect, sir. So if science says
you have no brain, how can we trust
your
lectures, sir?"

Now the room is silent. The professor
just stares at the student, his face
unreadable. Finally, after what seems
an eternity, the old man answers. "I
guess?you'll have to take them on
faith."

"Now, you accept that there is faith,
and, in fact, faith exists with life,"
the student continues. "Now, sir, is
there such a thing as evil?"

Now uncertain, the professor
responds, "Of course, there is. We see
it
everyday.
It is in the daily example of man's
inhumanity to man. It is in the
multitude
of crime and violence everywhere in
the world. These manifestations are
nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil
does not exist sir, or at least it does
not exist unto itself. Evil is simply
the absence of God. It is just like
darkness and cold, a word that man has
created to describe the absence of
God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the
result of what happens when man does
not
have God's love present in his heart.
It's like the cold that comes when
there is no heat or the darkness that
comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

at the edge of giving up...

2008-03-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

I see myself turning into a nocturnal animal lately... It seems that not only my life was all wretched, even my biological clock is all messed up! Almost for a week I went to bed as late as 3-4 pm.. And wake up at noon... Lalala, it's actually a very normal thing for a person enjoying her holiday~ No way, I'm not leading such an unhealthy lifestyle yet, every morning I find no purpose for me to wake up.

Have been sticking on my laptop for the passed 10 days doing whatever last_minute research and applications for universities and scholarships. I am now traumatized by looking at so much data that I've found yet I've problems sorting them out. I'm considered done with the local and Singapore universities applications. One thing bothering me now is the applications for aussie... Almost all of the Australian universities that I've checked do not offer Pharmacy for the second semester (July) intake, therefore it's rather pointless to apply for them, aye?

Furthermore, I'll need to sign up for IELTS which will cost me rm800 for the test + workshop, by which it's a lot of money to me. Plus every application to each Australia University will cost me $AUD100. Even though my dad does not mind to spend the amount of money, I still find that's a lot of money to be thrown away... Ugh ugh, so I changed my mind, say slash to aussie!! I'm a piece weak minded crap! T.T

_____~Wish of the day~_____
Happy Birthday To Kar Keat!!!
Although you study at TAR college d and very boh-liong-simly forgotten me, still gotta say ;
YOUR TEENAGE LIFE'S OVER!!!
SO PLEASE BEHAVE YOURSELF, BRADA!!!

_____~MK lights A bulb~_____
Forewords:
Fellow peepow, this is just a new section that I'd like to add to my blog sharing my own half-made up-half-true philosophies, so listen and learn!! Or maybe just listen...

Bulb #1 *twink* :
Tips to guys in a relationship, remember the DATES!! Valentine's day, her birthday, her father's birthday, her mother's birthday, her ah gong's ah ma's birthday, your first date, your first kiss~ Haha you'll be surprised by how girls remember them and how happy you make her feels if you do too!!

I'm not a love expert; I just share what I feel... Muaxxx ^3^

mk.falling